Sunday, September 19, 2004
Lost?
Late nights.
Piles of books here and there.
I don't know how long I can last before i *snap.
Been trying to pop myself with multi vits hoping that it'll work like drugs to keep me going.
I don't know if it really works.
The Five People You Meet In Heaven has set me thinking about the meanings of my life.
I have not really come up with one, except to Suffer.
But it says that 'No Life is a Waste. The only time we waste is the time we spend thinking
we're alone.'
Nothing is really inside of me now except S-T-U-D-Y.
But I feel that the drive, the motivation to study is dying.
- Just like fire burning in a air tight container. The oxygen gets used up eventually.
- Machines running without oil. Gets stuck one day
- The battery that has been used for a long time. It just won't work some day.
Now that I've reached this point. I just pray that something will just happen to me.
To allow me to be motivated again.
It's tiring to see the same old unsatisfactory results again and again despite putting in all the hard work.
I don't know what I'm thinking. Maybe all the studying has cause me to lose my mind, myself.
Heaven can be found in the most likely corners.
s e n s e d @ 4:27 PM
