Wednesday, October 26, 2005
I realized...
I realized that -
An individual will always be an individual.
No one will always be there for somebody.
It's true.
Think about it-
Will friends made now last?
Even if you try your best to hold on to it?
Be truthful.
I don't know-
I just feel that
Whenever I needed somebody
Someone to be there for me.
There isn't really any.
I'm not that sort who voice out.
I just need someone there...
Maybe desperate to the extent of anyone
Maybe it's wrong of me to want someone there in the first place.
Whatever it is...
I realised that-
What we used to have
Were just for that spur of the moment.
Will you remember?
Or am I just the wishful party?
It has been a long time since we've laughed our hearts out Together.
Probably together means physical.
Probably there's never a Together in future.
I won't doubt that.
I miss you. Do you know that?
I need you. Do you know that?
Maybe it's better that you don't know anything.
Maybe it's Even Better that we've not met.
s e n s e d @ 6:31 PM
Friday, October 14, 2005
Last Day of School.
Last breakfast date.
Official Dismissal tomorrow...
It didn't seem long ago when PSLE ended,
making my way to the new school,
where the next four years is to be spent in.
Proof!
4 years had passed.
I really can't bear to go...
I can't bear to leave all that I have behind.
Maybe nothing's left eventually since everyone's taking her share along.
What really ends is the common things that we share.
Be it being in the same compound, in the same activity.
All has come to an end.
What's left is O's.
Those last fews days sitting in the hall,
participating in the scribbling activitty.
I can't bear to part with all the wonderful people...
I can't bear to let this chapter close.
s e n s e d @ 10:07 PM
Friday, October 07, 2005
The Flea
Mark but this flea, and mark in this,
How little that which thou deny'st me is;
It sucked me first, and now sucks thee,
And in this flea, our two bloods mingled be;
Thou knowest that this cannot be said
A sin, nor shame, nor loss of maidenhead.
Yet this enjoys before it woo,
And pampered, swells with one blood made of two,
And this, alas, is more than we would do.
Oh stay, three lives in one flea spare,
Where we almost, yea, more than married are.
This flea is you and I, and this
Our marriage bed, and marriage temple is;
Though parents grudge, and you, we are met
And cloistered in these living walls of jet.
Though use make you apt to kill me,
Let not to that self murder added be,
And sacrilege, three sins in killing three.
Cruel and sudden, hast thou since
Purpled thy nail in blood of innocence?
Wherein could this flea guilty be
Except in that drop which it sucked from thee?
Yet thou triumph'st, and sayest that thou
Find'st not thyself, nor me, the weaker now.
'Tis true, then learn how false fears be;
Just so much honor, when thou yieldst to me,
Will waste, as this flea's death took life from thee.
John Donne
s e n s e d @ 3:33 PM
Thursday, October 06, 2005
All is done, &
All are said.
Tears held within were finally released.
They flow slow and with ease.
I have my doubts, but
I have not given up.
It's really not time to give up now.
Now that I've come so far.
Not when all are so hopeful for me.
There's still hope.
Beginning anew.
Empowered with knowledge,
Activated in full speed.
God speed to you and me.
s e n s e d @ 10:38 PM
Sunday, October 02, 2005
another member of 20 Club found. :)
Yesterday was a fulfilling day for me.
All thanks to You (you should know who you are =) )
Bai Tang Gao and Ba Chen Gao rocks.
They taste so sweet.
Studied a total of about 12 hours.
But don't feel like I did much.
But it's still quite a lot.
I'm contradicting.
All thanks to you,
I had good meals yesterday...
If not for you, lunch won't be so good.
x/ Felt quite bad, thinking of how full you must have been.
Feeling sleepy right now...
Had my own little exam in the morning.
A - Math.
Slow.
Yook slightly more than 2 hours.
Rahh~
I'm trying to keep my spirit high.
It helps to have a high spirit when studying.
Having the confidence makes half the battle won already.
Everybody jia you!!
We'll make it good in the end.
YES We Will.
s e n s e d @ 1:41 PM
