Saturday, January 21, 2006
'Click' unheard.
Frequency un-tamed.
Probably I'm better off with others.
We just belong to different worlds.
Trying to accommodate and not accepted is miserable.
You're no longer who I think you are.
I used to think that despite all the distance we had we'll still be what we claim to be.
But no. You can't even sense the misery I feel.
It's tiring to give in all the time.
Hopefully this will end soon.
Then I'll have to start anew.
It's not a bad thing to be all alone after all.
Cause the worse thing is to feel lonely despite being with your 'friends'.
And often, unexpected people make even better friends...
s e n s e d @ 12:33 AM
Monday, January 16, 2006
I've come to realize the scary thing about girls.
The 'friendship' can be so hypocritical.
I never believe that...
Now that I have to.
People relationships are just so complicated.
Why can't things be easier?
I simply miss the times back there...
It seem so far away now.
Especially so when there's no turning back.
s e n s e d @ 10:43 PM
Wednesday, January 11, 2006
Call me crazy.
Call me weird.
It actually chase or rather cut away my blues when I went for a haircut.
No idea why I was blur.
No reason to be either.
Maybe I'm just being very tempremental.
I miss Cedar.
I miss the people there.
When can we actually meet up again and have lessons in the once so famaliar places?
I wonder...
I wonder.
This world is just so unpredictable.
s e n s e d @ 8:31 PM
Monday, January 09, 2006
Hmmm.... things aren't as bad as I think they are.
That's often the case isn't it?
I guess I'm settling down pretty well...
and I'm afraid that it'll be hard for me to leave when the time comes.
But what's the point of talking about such things now?
When the decision has already been made?
Just hope that I won't regret.
A level is stressful, not like Poly won't be.
They've each got their own demands.
Argh...
Probably I'm afraid of leaving all my friends.
Poly will not be the norm.
Not many people I know will be there...
It's all back to the square me who's biggest enemy is the emptiness.
Maybe
Loneliness.
It's time to move on.
We're individuals after all.
We've each got our own way to go...
s e n s e d @ 11:54 PM
Wednesday, January 04, 2006
Suppose I'm really weird.
Just like I've realised before, I yearn to blog whenever I'm down.
Second day of first 3 months.
Second day of orientation.
Time seem to pass so fast yet so slow.
The new chapter some call it, yet I feel likewise.
Second day yet it seemed to have dragged so long.
So tell me how long more does things have to go on this way?
Maybe I'm the crazy one.
Fancy me feeling all down and sad when everyone's starting to have smiles ont their face.
Maybe I'm school sick?
I'm sure I am.
What could the real reason be?
Probably nothing as one can just feel so blue for no reason.
I'm kinda hoping that lesson could start.
I can say it with no doubt that I'm a person who does not like too much fun.
4 days of fun could be too much.
I'm just weird.
I know I am.
There's no deny to it.
Learning to let go,
yet holding on...
cause it's not easy to let go...
s e n s e d @ 10:31 PM
