Tuesday, July 31, 2007
INAC test was alright...
I met Wen An at the KAP bus stop and it so happened that he was going to Little India to change train home... take the same buses as I do.
Talked a lot... got to know more about his course... updates on the fellow OG mates I had for first 3 months... a little about his life.
It was fun, really fun talking to him. I realized he is a little similar to Nadj.
What I didn't quite like was that he kept harping on my results.
I mean.. so what those are really my grades... and he doesn't understand the stress I'm going through to maintain them.
Sometimes I really wished that I don't get such results, that I have an aunt who isn't bothered over me getting good results, that I am not someone who is bothered over grades.
But sadly all the above stated are true.
But it's ok, his harpings didn't really quite get on my nerves, probably because I was feeling relieved upon completing the INAC paper.
I was glad to have a company to walk me somewhere quite near my house...
s e n s e d @ 9:34 PM
Body's Instrumentation
I really wonder what had happened to my biological mechanisms.
I feel super tired and sleepy in the afternoon.
Experience lots of difficulties keeping myself awake.
But when it turns all dark and quiet,
I have better control over my concentration and staying awake.
So I let myself sleep my entire afternoon away again, though I ended school at 12noon.
Played games... searched for videos.
It seems whenever I have tests and exams drawing near,
I'll always end up doing such nonsense, wasting time.
But at least I had a few hours of quality studies.
Now pondering if I should continue studying or turn in...
Oh wells... shall just go sleep and hopefully have another fruitful revision in the morning...
No confidence at all for tomorrow's INAC test,
haven't touch on MoBio....
Dead meat.Labels: Reflections
s e n s e d @ 1:37 AM
Sunday, July 29, 2007
Coma
At the rate that I sleep....
I would be considered slipping into unconsciousness, in fact, coma.
I woke up at 9am.
Started to settle down to do revision at 11am.
But ended up on my comfortable pillow and fell asleep till almost 5pm.
But got up in between for a couple of times.
Failed to get myself up fully.
So I allowed myself to sleep to my heart's content when I finally got up feeling awake.
Not at all progressing as planned.
I am not motivated at all.
I know that my grades aren't that good already.
To maintain, I would need to do superbly well for the 2nd CT and the final exam.
But it's hard.
Something is very wrong with me...
I'm giving up easily lately.
What has gotten into me?
I hate myself for being like that.
I hate the current state of me.Labels: Feelings
s e n s e d @ 12:27 AM
Saturday, July 28, 2007
Figures
Never really like figures - numbers.
But I guess the more you want to avoid it, the more you'll end up doing things very much related to it no matter how.
Bio Statistics. My module.
Finance. My assignment.
In a way, I feel that Bio Stats is better. At least it's just dealing with datas and figures that you just need to explore the relationships between the datas.
Finance can drive PF and I nuts. I must admit we are slow in counting the money we collect. But that is not a problem. We can still count properly.
But the problem is, planning on how a large sum of funds is to be deployed. Not on the general picture. But in details!
How is it possible to plan in such great details when the events aren't even way close. Furthermore we're not the organizers, ok at least one of the events is PF's. But how is it possible to state how much you're going to spend on what items?
Argh... it's total madness.Labels: Feelings
s e n s e d @ 12:05 AM
Sunday, July 22, 2007
Inverts
Finally managed to settle down to study for longer durations than I had been able to.
Managed to be quite focused last night and this morning.
Eventually died down in the afternoon.
Wanted to make full use of tonight to study for tomorrow's French test.
But my pipe is leaking again for no reason.
The mood is gone so has the momentum.
Was suppose to enjoy two good movies in between my sneezes.
But all thanks to her.
Got rid of those ideas and decided to have an early night instead.
~*~*~
Why is it that people ask Very Obvious questions and get irritated when you shot them in return.
Eg:
Q - He brought the things here?
A - Never come how to bring here?
And that person flared up.
S***** right!? And I thought you always claim yourself to be all-knowing, so smart.
In return I was titled : So Rude.
Hello~
Here you can see me sneezing away, covered with blanket up to my chin, having difficulty breathing and there you went asking so many obvious questions.
Only you're entitled to have a temper?
It has always been the case that you can display your displeasures any way that you like, and should anyone of us tried to do so in the most discrete manner we would be entitled as a rebel.
Whatever.
Since you're the 'Queen'.Labels: Feelings
s e n s e d @ 7:46 PM
Saturday, July 21, 2007
Indian Lady in Pink
As I was walking towards Farrer Park MRT,
on my way to Sniper Outing,
It began to drizzle with big droplets of rain.
Two ladies who were walking behind me began to ran towards the mrt.
One ran faster than the other.
In front of me was an Indian lady in pink, she took out a matching unbrella when the raindrops fell.
As the slower lady tried to catch up with the faster one,
she breeze-walked past the lady with the unbrella, just like the faster one did as she ran ahead.
Being the one who had decided to keep to my pace,
I saw the lady in umbrella smiled and offer to share her umbrella with the slower lady.
This is not what I had expected at all.
She even turned to smile at me.
Sometimes, I feel that in this world, kind people do exist.
Those little kind gestures really warm your heart,
that is if you are able to appreciate them.
I have no idea if the lady being offered a shelter appreciated it,
but I must say, I really like that Indian Lady in Pink.Labels: Reflections
s e n s e d @ 8:16 PM
Friday, July 20, 2007
Long Lost Love Found
Finally found the website that I had been looking for!! The site with games that never fails to leave you feeling peaceful and happy....
Because it has sweet pretty graphics and soft tones.
Can't say that it is really my love... but I like it.
All thanks to my classmate, WW, who was playing it after Stats CCT today.
Hahaha... wee~ So happy.
It alway feels good to be home early, slacking away...
Labels: Feelings
s e n s e d @ 10:31 PM
Thursday, July 19, 2007
The Same
She's back. Finally.
I missed her.
Not because I'll no longer need to do my own laundry.
But it's not easy to being handwashing during school days.
It felt the same. Just like she has always been here...
Love it each time she comes back with yummy avocado. =)
Finished an entire avocado made into shake by muself for lunch.
Time to cut down on food intake.
Been taking too many meals.
For dinner itself last night, I already had 2. One at 5pm plus, the other at 8pm plus.
Manx... does my body really need that much food and energy? I wonder.
It's getting closer to second CT and final exam.
I just can't bring myself to sit down still to study.
Just look at me today.
No class on a Thursday, woke up at 9am.
Read the papers, went to the market.
Played games till almost 12 and still didn't do any studies when there's 1 quiz and 1 test tomorrow.
How wonderful my attitude towards studies has become.Labels: Reflections
s e n s e d @ 12:28 PM
Sunday, July 15, 2007
Paint
I was glad that I had decided to help out with Feli,SJ & WX's project.
The elderly we helped painted her house has a very very bad living condition.
It's pitiful to be all alone when you're old.
Not only you're too physically weak to do much of the house hold chores, you become mentally ill cause you get too lonely.
Really very very pitiful.
Despite all the hardwork painting the 1-room flat,
I guess it felt more like an outing for us, since it's almost like a GL outing.
Really had lots of fun.. though it took up the entire day, and my aunt wasn't really very happy.
I'm just plain happy that I had done something meaningful.
Some pictures:
http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2089795270Labels: Outing
s e n s e d @ 3:29 PM
Saturday, July 14, 2007
Together
I felt good...
A campus run after 2 months? I guess it's longer than that.
Anyway I was pretty surprised that I could complete the entire campus run breathing only through nose!
Hahaha.... am I in a very good state of health or what?
But I'm glad I went for training today...
At least I get to spend quite a number of hours with Christle. =)
Really missed her...
How nice we were still studying together.
We sort of made a promise with each other today.
That we'll pursue further studies together after Poly.
I really wish that it will come true...
Our Europe backpacking together as well...Labels: Feelings, OB
s e n s e d @ 12:19 AM
Monday, July 09, 2007
Stagnant
Everyone is improving....
I'm the only one stuck behind,
Breeding mosquitoes.
Soon I'll be caught, because dengue fever is on the rise.Labels: Feelings
s e n s e d @ 10:40 PM
Inferior
I have 2 very very intelligent primary school classmates.
One who took up French in secondary school and was so good that she was given scholarship to study in France. Currently doing very well in JC.
The other was a O Level top scorer. Had a perfect score for her SAT (probability of 0.003) and it seems she has secured a place in Harvard University. Currently a student in a top JC.
Wohoo~
How lucky am I to have been their classmates.
It's just too bad that I'm not as smart as them and not doing as well as them.
Gay Guy is right... you may score
213098102938091238 A1s but sucked at doing stuffs.
Oh wells... different people have different abilities.
Studying super hard might not get you top grades.. but,
As long as you have studied hard and what's yours will be yours.Labels: Reflections
s e n s e d @ 12:24 AM
Saturday, July 07, 2007
My 'baby' Brother
Lots of things to talk about...
Finally managed to celebrate my brother's birthday with him this year...
It had been so long that I even forgot when was the last time I was with him during his birthday.
10 years ago? Or even more.
It's not exactly celebrating with him because it was a day early.
One thing I felt glad was that there wasn't think awkard feeling when I was out shopping with him, though often we don't have much to say, especially on the bus.
But I still feel comfortable in his presence.
I am very proud of my brother.
At the age of 16, he has a very good built, muscular, and half a head taller than me and still growing.
I couldn't help smiling to myself when he was playing car racing at the Tampines arcade because he played it real well... with superb fast timings. I felt proud though I know that such things are of not very big deals.
My little brother has really grown up, no longer that small boy that needed me to bathe him...
He is now a teenager with a girlfriend of 14 months.
I feel like I am really worlds apart from them.
My mum and my brother shares the same world.
and mine is drifting away.
This is how I felt when 3 of us were seated on a table and when conversations took place.
Sometimes I really wished that things were different.
I think my mum spent a bomb on the dinner.
5 dishes for 3 person.
Fish maw soup, french beans with dried prawns, XO pork ribs, assam fishhead, steam crab.
Sad thing is she was working and couldn't join us for dinner.
I almost finish 2 entire crab because my brother and uncle were lazy.
Oh wells, I had a very wonderful dinner.
I wished I could have a chance to go back M'sia this coming long holiday with my mum...
All those yummy food...
But actually it's the company of my mum that I longed for.
s e n s e d @ 11:57 PM
Friday, July 06, 2007
What is it exactly?
Human relationship is complicated.
Things are not as complicated as you think it is.
He who is complicated makes things complicated.
So are things just as simple as they seem to be?
There are so many examples showing that a person can be nice to you and behind your back, bad mouths you.
But there can be people who are just plain nice to you though you both are not well acquainted.
Maybe everything just need to have two sides to balance things.
~*~*~
In life, you just need to have at least a little bit of luck, I guess.
Not everyone with ability will be recognised.
It is those who have abilities and that bit of luck that brings them benefits and help them improve and move on in life in leaps and bounds.
Nothing is Fair and Just.Labels: Reflections
s e n s e d @ 11:49 PM
