Sunday, May 02, 2010
Security
Felt that I wasted the entire day.
Don't think anything that I read actually went in.
They were just words, made no sense to me despite reading the same thing over and over again.
Wrong decision to stay at home?
Maybe.
I felt frustrated.
So empty.
So hot.
So negative.
Just a call would have made all the difference to my entire afternoon.
Just like now.
Waiting waiting and waiting.
Labels: Feelings
s e n s e d @ 9:41 PM
Friday, July 17, 2009
How not to?
You tell me how not to be worried when it's a matter of life and death?
Yes, it's not as worrying now.
But how can I not be worried?
Why can't I just accept the fact that attending English classes will not be a bad thing after all?
Because somewhere else doesn't require that.
That somewhere else had given more tempting offer.
But a choice made is a choice made.
So what if there are regrets now?
Isn't it all too late?Labels: Feelings
s e n s e d @ 12:08 AM
Sunday, April 19, 2009
What's the problem with me?
ARGH!Labels: Feelings
s e n s e d @ 11:33 PM
Monday, January 05, 2009
Education
What is Education really all about?
What should Education be all about?
Right now, my mind is loaded with all the thoughts of how I am to go about finishing all the assignments and reports.
I can say for sure that right now, 12mn, there are still numerous number of people whom I know working on their report that is due today.
A total different kind of demand from Primary and Secondary School days.
Those days require you to mug... all you have to do is to do your TYS and memorise equations and facts.
But we were relatively happy.
I think I was happy.
I can still have true laughters with my friends.
At least we were not loaded with pile of assignments and reports to complete during festive seasons.
We were given our due holidays, to recharge.
I don't understand why schooling has seem to become such a chore for me.
I used to enjoy schooling.
I managed my school work well.
I had fun with my friends.
But right now, I have no life at all.
I don't see why a module that doesn't hold much credit give us assignments that take up so much effort and time.
Never mind if we can understand what we are suppose to do after spending all the time and effort.
But that's not the case.
All these unnecessary assignments that I personally feel doesn't value add much but cause all the undue stress should be reviewed.
Surely there are other ways to impart the same values without having us to go through all those tedious, unfruitful, uncertain processes.
It's good to engage students in a somewhat major project.
To allow us to take charge.
But why is it that the school will overlook the time factor?
Yes, we should be aware of it, but we're still kids after all... we need time to play.
Yes, we are young, we can take it physically and probably, mentally. But we are still humans.'
You didn't help, but made matters worse by cutting short the time we have to produce the work you expected.
It's not fair at all. Though you may say the world is never fair.
But what about the students from the other sem?
They have an entire sem to work on their report! AN ENTIRE SEM!
The thought of it just get me fuming mad.
What is these all about?
Making students so sick and tired of studying.
So what if I am a third year student?
I don't deserve some good rest?
I don't deserve to celebrate Christmas and New Year properly?
I don't deserve to start the year feeling all positive and fully re-charged to face the challenges the new year is going to bring?
Do I not deserve to enjoy schooling?
WHAT THE H*LL!
I just feel like skipping school the entire week just to rest, to have fun, although school is just starting tomorrow... in fact today.
I doubt this coming CNY will be good.
But heck, I'm going to skip school and have a good time.
Feeling so p*ssed.Labels: Feelings, Reflections
s e n s e d @ 12:00 AM
Sunday, December 28, 2008
How to last?
Lots and lots of work piled up upon us.
Really feel mentally drained.
I really wish to take some time,
a few days to have some quality rest,
to have time to do things that I like.
Up-coming squad gathering.
Seems like I won't be able to attend the entire meet-up session.
Really need time.
Yes,
it'll be over soon.
By March 2009.
Not a very long time.
But the problem is: How to last till then??
Gosh,
Hang in there everyone...
We WILL MAKE IT!
I'm thankful that I've got you.
The important people of my life.Labels: Feelings
s e n s e d @ 8:26 PM
Friday, November 28, 2008
The Point
I see your point.
It's not that there's no point.
It's just that you didn't see my point.Labels: Feelings
s e n s e d @ 10:26 PM
Sunday, November 23, 2008
Rot
Back to the usual.
As long as I stay home for the weekend,
I simply use the hours to rot.
But it won't that bad if you have someone to talk to.
Thanks, Feli.
Anything also can call me...
Best if you have someone to spend those hours with.
Haiyo... it takes me so much effort to supress that urge to sms.
We all need our own personal space,
but I want my personal space to include you.Labels: Feelings
s e n s e d @ 6:14 PM
Sunday, November 16, 2008
So into it.
It's a horrible and terrible feeling.
Fallen too deep already.Labels: Feelings
s e n s e d @ 10:21 PM
Monday, October 27, 2008
Sucks to be me.
I hate this feeling.
The feeling of looking forward to something,
especially to get out of the house,
and be crushed at the last minute.
It's stupid to get teary over such things.
That's why I suck.
You promised.
Please keep it.Labels: Feelings
s e n s e d @ 5:22 PM
Saturday, October 25, 2008
nothing to do
hate that stupid feeling.
feel like I am dying.
that my heart is going to stop anytime.
there seem to be tonnes of things to do.
yet I feel like there's nothing to do.Labels: Feelings
s e n s e d @ 9:17 PM
Thursday, October 23, 2008
that love hate feeling.
拥有了，就会害怕失去。Labels: Feelings
s e n s e d @ 8:29 PM
Thursday, October 09, 2008
Dragging my heart with it...
How come time seem to pass so slowly...
It seems to be dragging.
How can one make one's mind be preoccupied with thoughts that one desires?
Teach me if you know how.
It's boring to stay at home.
Or rather,
It's lonely to stay at home.
Where can I go?
Roam the streets?
and just come home to the bed when the day is over.Labels: Feelings
s e n s e d @ 10:49 AM
Monday, September 22, 2008
Dig them all out.
I just feel like digging my heart out.
Dig all my internal organs out.
Something just seem to be stuck inside.
It's making me feel miserable.
Does history always has to repeat itself?
Or am I just cursed?
You think you are sensitive?
I think not.
Don't come poking into my life, gaining my trust and dependence and leave me to die with an empty hole.
Irritaing shit.
Filled with negative thoughts.
Why? Why must life be like that?
Can't it be straight forward?
Why can't we be frank?
How I wished I was knocked down by that car just now. =)Labels: Feelings
s e n s e d @ 5:43 PM
Thursday, August 14, 2008
Make me SLEEP!!!
It's the witching hour...
and I can't sleep.
Those snores makes it hard for me to shut the sounds...
That scratch from her toe nail makes me unable to forget about my physical presence.
Lala Land is so far away tonight/ today.
Panda eyes never desert though.
Great,
now the tap seems to be leaking.
No tv programme to watch,
no entertainment.
I look like crap
in the mirror.
GET ME BACK TO SLEEP!!!Labels: Feelings, shouts
s e n s e d @ 3:33 AM
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
Run alone.
Good thing that the campus run made me so tired.
Had a good run in the sun.
Had a good nap in the clubhouse.
The night got cold...
Exceptions always happen,
don't they?
Probably exercise is good.
Makes you tired,
makes you stop thinking.
But it makes you look stupid running in the afternoon,
under the hot sun,
all alone.
Looks like a despaired person.
That's what someone told me.
I am finally settling down to read...
but I find my mind somewhere else
Cold Turkey.Labels: Feelings
s e n s e d @ 10:17 AM
Saturday, July 19, 2008
what a feeling...
been staying at home the entire day...
facing the screens...
TV,
laptop.
Watched Warlords, some HK dramas...
Quite meaningless I know.
But I can't get out.
There's nowhere to go...
In fact, there's no company.
Both are not valid reasons.
Can't get out is the crucial point.
Anyway, that's not the main thing I want to say.
Don't know why...
But somehow, night time seems to be the time that a person will start to feel alone, empty.
I remember the days when I use to have someone to talk to at night...
Almost every night if I didn't remember wrongly.
But that was years ago...
Haiz, just what is wrong with me?
Must be all the meaningless things.
Hopefully tomorrow will be good.
It will be good...
Except for the fact that I have been ordered to come home early.
Why can't I just have freedom like the rest of my friends?Labels: Feelings
s e n s e d @ 11:19 PM
Sunday, June 29, 2008
Sun-kissed Day
Last minute Sentosa outing invitation.
Went anyway... it was pretty good.
Never played in the sentosa sea longer than today's.
Love the sun...
Rushed home for dinner... pathetic dinner.
I think the internet is really boring.
Seriously there isn't anything much you can do.
Or rather I can do.
I get bored watching too much anime, reading too much comics.
Going to chat rooms is bad.
There aren't much good blogs to read.
Maybe I should really start reading scientific papers again...
Time to build up the momentum...Labels: Feelings
s e n s e d @ 12:14 AM
Thursday, June 26, 2008
Panick
I am getting really very worried over my OIAP Final Report.
The thickness of my Appendices is sufficient to pass of as the report itself!
The thickest portion of it is my Interim Report II.
Why did I write so much?! And I realized that my diagrams have no sub-labels.
Oh no!!
What's most worrying is that I am still waiting for replies from Ireland...
To have my project description portion read and areas for improvement pointed out.
Pointers to add in my discussion especially!!
Oh no oh no!!!
Dear J, please hurry!
It feels good running around the school again...Labels: Feelings
s e n s e d @ 1:05 AM
Monday, June 16, 2008
Complete Family
I am BACK!!!!
Frankly on the way back, was feeling quite sad to leave.
But now, I feel so happy to be back.
Had a superb surprise when I got home...
Many of the Brothers and Sisters were sitting in my living room watching tv.
The weird thing was I received HX's sms to welcome me back,
JH's call to welcome me back and that he can't come fetch me.
You all argh!!
Tricky things!
Thanks for all the food... the local delights.
Everything that I could miss are almost completed.
Thanks.
It's just nice looking at them though I would be better if I can eat them, all thanks to the flight.
How much thanks can I say?!
Hope you all know how I really feel...
Feels so very good to see you all...
Sorry, make you all waste money le...
We have a complete Family Potrait at last!!!Labels: BroNSis, Feelings
s e n s e d @ 11:48 PM
Friday, June 13, 2008
Teary eyes...
Last day of work over.
Taught whatever I could to the 2 summer students.
Didn't have a good sleep the previous night.
Just feel kind of suffocated, tight lungs.
Very uncomfortable.
It's hard to say goodbye.
Firstly goodbye to a Lady on Monday,
Second on tuesday to our cute Supervisor. [forgot to take photo with him =( ]
Third to my project in charge on wednesday.
Many more on today, thursday.
1st goodbye of the day already made my tears flow, that was to the canteen aunties.
It's like they can still tell us that they remember the very first day we step into that canteen.
Subsequent ones... oh no.
Why can't Ireland be next to Singapore?
Or be like 1hr flight away?
We might never ever meet each other again.
That is sad.
Anyway, going to London tomorrow.
Hope everything turns out well...
I have no space to buy anything from London. =(
Going to be back really soon...
See you all back in hot sunny Singapore.Labels: Feelings, Ireland
s e n s e d @ 12:59 AM
