Tuesday, November 30, 2004
Mysterious person...
Maybe what Heng said is right, (though I have no idea who Heng is)
He said that: A lot of people went thru the life searching for 'the one'. Searching for the
true love of their life. But the one they are searching might be sitting
there right next to them. Appreciate the one who care for you.
I guess what he/she says makes sense.
So people, treasure whoever that cares for you, be him/her a potential lover or just a friend or relative etc.
PS: Can you please kindly let me know who you are? Thanks
s e n s e d @ 9:00 AM
Thursday, November 25, 2004
Airport
Hey.... blogging from the changi airport now...
So cool!!!
Hahaha... free 15min internet usage, free local calls...
Manx, I'm so excited about the bangkok trip though I'm a little unwell.
But never mind. When I get there, guess I'll be too busy to get sick.
=P
Hmmmm..... today training was fun. Field cooking....
A bit yucks... but edible. For the Sec 3s lah.
Anyway gonna times' up already.
Get back then update you guys.
Hope I can everyone something
s e n s e d @ 8:03 PM
Wednesday, November 24, 2004
Feeling so uncomfortable now...
Suppose to go for Footdrill Silver Accred today, end up sick.
Middle of the night got gastric, maybe because yesterday overate at Soul Garden.
Down with slight flu. Could it be those rain drops yesterday?
I don't know.
Have been sleeping all day.
Did nothing but sleep.
I hope I can get well by tomorrow.
Flying off tomorrow night.
Don't wanna get sick there.
Haiz~ Bad luck.
Of all days, why do I have to get sick today?
When I'm suppose to attend an important test and when I'm going on a holiday tomorrow?
Sorry people, that I can't make it for the accred.
Going back to sleep...
s e n s e d @ 3:06 PM
Monday, November 22, 2004
Longing
I'm longing for someone...
Someone who can make me so happy...
Maybe I should stop reading those books.
They never fail to make me dream...
But they are sooo sweeetttt!!!
Haiz. But really can there really a perfect someone.
I'm not longing for a boyfriend or what.
Jus someone who can share my joy and happiness.
Is that what you call as a bossom friend? Or Zhi Ji in chinese...
s e n s e d @ 1:06 PM
Read through some of the juniors' blogs...
I realized that a couple of them mention something like living for him.
Hmmm... not trying to say that it's a bad thing.
But I wonder how it's really like to have a him that really fills your heart.
s e n s e d @ 1:03 PM
Saturday, November 20, 2004
He caught me off guard and swept me off ground.
But I barely know him.
A new friend I found in him.
s e n s e d @ 1:39 PM
Souvenirs.
Manx. Doing souvenirs for the entire board and seniors is simply no joke.
I almost died doing it.
Especially when that souvenir needed so much patience and skill.
Arrrgghhh.... doing them in a rush is what I hated most.
The night before camp I was still rushing to complete them.
Sat down from 6pm - 12mn.
Suppose to be watching TV. (Double Happiness... Idols... In-laws... my fav jap Anime)
But in the end didn't really watch.
Was concentrating hard on what I was doing - souvenirs.
Ended up listening only.
Hiaz.
Thought that I can't finish on time... decided to msg excos that they won't be getting it tmr.
But I feel bad. I want to give all of them on time!
Didn't manage to finish when the clock strike 12.
Super tired.
Have to wait for that glue to dry as well.
Decided to wake up early to do it.
Off to bed~
x S*** jus realized that I've forgotten to pack my bag.
Woke up at 5. Jus to do the test tubes.
Got scolded by aunt. She's so unahppy that I'm spending so much time on them.
But no choice.
Manx... I really want to finish all in time!!!
Rush Rush Rush...
Finally managed to finish all of them by the time it was time for me to leave house.
Phew~
I must give credits to Crys and Val for coming down to my house to help me.
Thanks so much pals!
Lastly, hope you ppl who receive it like that... I'm sorry that some of you received some ugly looking ones. IF you want, maybe I can try re-doing for you.
s e n s e d @ 1:26 PM
Congrats!
Soppy! This is like a msg to you. Hahaha.. cause won't be going to school for next week or so. Even if I go back also don't really have chance to chit chat with you...
Heex.
Jus wanna tell you that the person attatched!!!
Hahaha.... You should know who I'm talking about. (that person u never fail to ask me about)
I'm so happy for that person lah.
Patched back which don't know which ex...
Anyway... I miss you so much Sop.
I think that I've got something not right about me now...
That I'm sort of turning les... haha.. scully turning bi.
Kidding only lah. Don't know why jus feel like treating you nicely, like my younger sis like that.
A little of that feeling to PY also.
You 2 really have a way in me...
**Sop bewitched San**
s e n s e d @ 10:53 AM
Drifting with the flow
Often than not, I'm having the same feeling.
The feeling that we're drifting apart.
I never knew you have this feeling till you told me.
But I've decided not to tell you that I'm having this feeling too.
What difference will it make if you were to know that I'm feeling this way?
In fact, I think I feel this way more often than you do...
I don't know what life will do to us.
Stay the way we are? Or that one day you and I will just be strangers.
Forgotten about each other.
We'll never know.
Often you assure me that such thing will not happen.
But things are so unpredictable.
How sure can you be?
s e n s e d @ 10:47 AM
Saturday, November 13, 2004
Another damage done...
I don't understand why she never fails to make me feel so mad inside.
Am I stupid to tolerate all that she's done to me? I know that I still have to respect her after all, for she's still my senior.
But why do I have to make myself live so miserably?
She's forever doing stupid things. Trust me. It's a *a** stupid thing that she did.
Can you believe that she actually called my tuition teacher to find out why I never do well for EYE? When she said that she doesn't blame the teacher that I never do well but blame me instead. Since she's blaming me, why does she still have to call her up?!!!
I don't get it!
She's so disgusting!
Maybe she's being concern about my studies. But somehow I wish that she knows that she's over-doing it. So much so that I feel so suffocated.
Seriously I feel like telling her why I never do well. It's because I feel so pressurized by her that during every single exam I feel that I have to do extremely well. In the end, I get so tensed up when I come across a little setback I lose confidence. Doesn't she know that I'm getting exam jitters because of her?!
I'm going crazy. And I hope I do get crazy. Guess it better than hoping to be dead.
I don't like the way she behaves as if nothing had happened whenever she's done something to me.
Why is she always so ignorant about all the damages she's done to me?
Why does she behaves as if nothing had happened when she's hurt me so much,
so hurt deep down inside...
s e n s e d @ 9:24 AM
Wednesday, November 10, 2004
Eye Candy in the morning... rotten banana in the night.
For the second time, I saw a cute guy in the train.
He's a scout. ^_^
Don't think he stays around this area, cause he and his group doesn't even know where is Kovan.
What an eye candy in the morning!
Something during that 4h really spoil my mood. Guess jw and lj will understand.
I was trying to be nice and yet that's what i got in return.
Maybe I was at fault as well.
Not to realize that they are facing a critical moment.
Didn't speak much during c.t cause I was still a little fuming inside.
Anyway someone else will do the talking. I'm not a person with much words anyway.
Tried out the routes. Hmmm... not too bad.
Should have been fun if not because of her.
All of them got worried for me.
Sorry about that fellow EXCOs!
Thanks for the concern.
They all said that she's protective.
Is she?
Maybe she is.
I guess it's too much!
TOO PROTECTIVE!
Can the fact that i'm turing 17 soon sink into her mind?
Can she understand that I know what I'm doing?
I doubt that it's possible...
s e n s e d @ 10:25 PM
Sunday, November 07, 2004
Trip back to my own country...
Malacca trip was great fun. Not because I got to learn more about my own country but because I got to spend time with my dear squad mates (Jia Wen, Jessica and Lee Si) Though it's jus a short trip, I guess I learnt more about them. Especially about Jessica. Hahaa...Ca, remember what I have to do when you’re bathing? Hahaa... that's for both of us to know and for those interested to find out.
Actually we didn't plan to sleep that night... but guess we were jus too tired from all the walking and chionging in the shopping center (shopping like crazy). Err... imagine 4 of us squeezing into 2 single bed that's placed side by side. Rather cramp. But Cozy. *^_^*
Shopping was rather fruitful for all of us. Hmmm... bought a couple of things that I like. A blue shirt with a girl print at the left corner. Very artistic. A mini tote bag by Wild Channel. Both of this bought from Tropicana Life. That shop really has great and cool stuffs. Bought first my super short shorts from F.O.S (Factory Outlet Shop) by Banana Moon. Hahaa... very nice short, because of the colour. Aunt almost wanted to scold me for wearing such shorts when I told her that it's a hipster, cause she says it's vulgar to show your cleavage at your bums. Whatever! It's not as if I'll be showing my bums around. I'm going to wear it with my big tees. Heex. More reason to buy big shirts. Sad case, J Wen's mum doesn't allow her to wear big and gruesome shirts... That's why she's selling the black shirt she bought to me. If there's more time. Guess I would have spent more money on shopping. Haha... my dear juniors so cute. During that 2h given to us, they only bought some re-igniting candles. They are so cute!
Manx. How nice we can go for more of such trips. Going hols with friends is a great thing cause we have common interest. Going with her... don't think I can shop like that. Hey that 3 of you, thanks for being such wonderful companions, although I had to be your maid at times. =P
s e n s e d @ 9:54 PM
Tuesday, November 02, 2004
世上只有妈妈好[Mum is the best thing in the World]
Went to meet mum today after training and meeting. Practically after 'school' though my hols have started.
I suppose she lost weight...
At least that's what I think.
Guess today is longest visit I had.
She gave me money to take cab home. But have decided not to although I have lots of things in hand.
Realized this little thing that's wrapped in magazines when I was about to leave.
'What's that?'
'Go back and open it. You'll know.' was all she said secretively.
Kissed Goodbye and I left without turning back...
On the train I couldn't help but open that little thing.
It's actually a bottle.
Those glass bottle that we use to contain the stars that we fold.
But cranes of different colours were found in it instead.
There was this little note:
宝贝，老套的那句，尽力而为。[Darling, same old phrase. Try your best.]
I was so touched that tears began to well up in my eyes...
She never failed to say that to me years back when I was facing exams. After so long, seeing this little note make me feel so touched. So touched that she knows how I am feeling right now and that she made the effort to get me such a simple yet lovely gift.
妈咪，我爱您！Mum, I LOVE YOU.
s e n s e d @ 6:18 PM
