Saturday, November 13, 2004
Another damage done...
I don't understand why she never fails to make me feel so mad inside.
Am I stupid to tolerate all that she's done to me? I know that I still have to respect her after all, for she's still my senior.
But why do I have to make myself live so miserably?
She's forever doing stupid things. Trust me. It's a *a** stupid thing that she did.
Can you believe that she actually called my tuition teacher to find out why I never do well for EYE? When she said that she doesn't blame the teacher that I never do well but blame me instead. Since she's blaming me, why does she still have to call her up?!!!
I don't get it!
She's so disgusting!
Maybe she's being concern about my studies. But somehow I wish that she knows that she's over-doing it. So much so that I feel so suffocated.
Seriously I feel like telling her why I never do well. It's because I feel so pressurized by her that during every single exam I feel that I have to do extremely well. In the end, I get so tensed up when I come across a little setback I lose confidence. Doesn't she know that I'm getting exam jitters because of her?!
I'm going crazy. And I hope I do get crazy. Guess it better than hoping to be dead.
I don't like the way she behaves as if nothing had happened whenever she's done something to me.
Why is she always so ignorant about all the damages she's done to me?
Why does she behaves as if nothing had happened when she's hurt me so much,
so hurt deep down inside...
s e n s e d @ 9:24 AM
