I've reliased that the pain that I feel for you all are not as simple as what I thought them to be. It isn't the physical torture that you all put yourself through. But the feeling of the pain you all have within you... Those emotional pain are worse than anything... They are so strong that even I felt it. Maybe cause I'm too sensative. I don't know. Nothing can be worse than being haunted by your own conscience, yourself. I don't think I can help... except to lend you a listening year and a shoulder to cry on. But somehow I guess you people are stronger than me... cause in the end I was the one who cried. So dumb right?
Some people told me that it's no point getting so upset and affected by it. But you all are my friends... Close or not that close... I'll still feel the same to everyone if I ever know that they are upset. Especially over such things.
Now I know how S feels when I was so wrapped up in myself. Not allowing him/her to help. It really hurts. But I won't probe into it. I don't wish to add more misery. But believe me when I told you that if you ever need someone and find none. I'll be that someone. It applies to all of you...
