It's the second time that I'm feeling this way. She cursed and hung up.
I didn't hang up on her. Why would I wanna hang up on her?
The first thing she said when she called was, 'Are you very busy?' There's tinge of anger and sadness in her voice. I can't blame her for feeling this way can I? For I'm the one at fault. Half the holiday gone then looked for her. She must have been waiting for me all these while. Not that I can help it. Busy with work. And my aunt is so against me going out, esp if I were to visit my mum.
I cired after hanging up. It's painful. It hurts, it really does.
I don't like it when she uses harsh tone on me. I'm scared. Maybe cause after all these years, she never scolded me or shouted at me.
It took me so long to get over the last episode. Now that it happened again. I don't know how I'll be like when I see her on Wed.
I really don't like it.
I know shee needs my attention. I need her's too right? But I doubt I'll be meeting her often after this Wed. How will she take it? It's going to hurt her real deep.
Funny. I'm feeling so scared of her now.
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This is why I say my life will not be led without pain.
