How fast does it take someone to change? The speed of a snap of the finger? A period of 2-3 months? Or much much longer?
I'm not angry. Neither am I jealous. Probably 'cause I can understand why she didn't inform us.
To save us the trouble. To prevent the awkward scene of 2 different groups of people. Surely not a quiet departure.
Not really thinking much about today. Cause it has led me to think further than that.
Things are ever changing in this world. Fast paced. And I've always thought that at least people don't change that fast.
Not true feelings, friendships... Once again, I was proven wrong.
We too, Can change and move on quickly in life, Despite claiming how hard it will be to let go before it really happens.
It hurts to realize this. But there's also comfort knowing the exsistence of a small group of people who hardly change. Who takes a super long time to let go...
Probably, everyone varies. That is why we're termed INDIVIDUALS
s e n s e d @ 11:43 PM
Tuesday, March 21, 2006
Someone dear of Yesterday Drifting a far Today Strangers of Tomorrow
I was once dear to you, was I not? But no longer, I doubt not. That's life isn't it?
You were so dear to me. You are still so, deep within. Am not lying about this.
It hurts. To realize that it's all in past tense now. 'We' is not longer exsisting.
It not only hurts to be alone in a crowd. It hurts extremely to be totally alone; Despite the fact that someone will be there.
No. It's hell to wake from the fantasy; Fantasy that someone had been there
When no one had been and was never there. Always a delusion.
Loner of Yesterday, Today & Tomorrow.
s e n s e d @ 12:12 PM
Sunday, March 05, 2006
What really makes my blood boils is that a person can actually complain about how expensive the present cost her. Hello? I didn't ask for it! In fact I told you I don't want it. Now that you've complained, and that I've had some thought over it, I don't think that I've been bad by telling straight in your face that I don't like it and that you've got bad taste. Ha.
A person who earn much less than you is willing to spend nearly $200 and not breath a word about it. Just think about how 'generous' you are. It's not the matter of the cost, but the willingness to give. If you're not, It's fine that you don't!
A big Thanks to Lee Si, I love that pretty little angel that phrase on the magnet. You're such a sweet friend.
Thanks to Wen for the lunch treat.
Thanks to everyone who have wished me, esp Val who wished me don't know how many times.
Val, thanks. You were there when I thought that I had no one. I felt much better after crying over the phone to you.
To dearest Juniors, You all have done a great job. Congrats on winning. It's good enough. So let those tears be sweet and not bitter.
I'm a caged girl Movements restricted Growth hindered Suffocated.
s e n s e d @ 12:22 AM
Saturday, March 04, 2006
It seemed like a rotten day. Probably one of the worst day I had in months. Definitely one of the worst bday. Just as I thought that it was going to be one of the best since it's such a significant year.
But I was wrong. So very. A significant year, Marked terribly memorable.
Consolation : Get to meet up with mum. But there were moments that I felt like crying cause I made her felt bad that I had to just stay at her work place.
What's really bad is I have to come home for dinner. Can't I have dinner with my mum instead? Who cares about spending time with Her? Think She's so big deal.
What a birthday. Filled with unwillingness, loneliness, unhappiness. It has startef on a wrong note. Probably, it's yet another bad year to go...
Why is it so? Just because I had a pretty good bday eve? Guess everything just have to balance out. Doesn't it?
*Birthday is just so wrong without spending part of it with friends...
