Thursday, August 30, 2007
Impact.Think.
Right now, I just have lots and lots of thoughts going through my mind.
Conscious thinking.
They manifested as a result of attending LL module, triggered by the people I met, things that I went through.
There is really really so much that I want to put into words, so that I have something to remind me in future.
I felt appreciated.
I realized that people around me do notice all the small little things that I do.
Some of which I wasn't even aware of because I merely acted as who I really am.
It feels really good to have people telling me how my presence made an impression in them.
What really surprised me and set me thinking is that I was told by a fellow team mate that I came across as a wise person to him.
It had never never crossed my mind that I am a wise person.
I really wonder how come he thinks I'm wise.
Should really think deeper into it.
But he is one person who set me into thinking deeper into things.
Almost everything.
When I tried to be more aware of my thinking,
I felt empty.
It's like I will do things without that conscious thinking.
Not without thinking.
Just that I don't Feel the thinking. Not the formation of sentences or anything.
But I just say them out.
Just like how I really am whenever I am preparing for exams, test and answering the questions as I read them. I really want to know Why I don't feel that conscious thinking.
But there are at times that I really think with much conscious.
To the extent of spelling them word by word in sentence structure.
The mind is a powerful thing isn't it?
But how much thinking is appropriate?
Do we need to spend so much time thinking into things that we let every other things just past us by?
But for now I really want to let my mind think.
And I really feel like trying to cultivate this into a good habit.
To Reflect.
After going through so much...
Some of my past reflections seem really negative.
But I guess they do serve a purpose.
To allow myself to be aware of my negative thoughts instead of trying to avoid them.
I don't know... but right now...
there's so much and so much...
It may be the after camp effect, but really.
It's a good favour that I'll be doing for myself to be thinking what I really feel inside.
They next time you feel down.
Reflect... and be brave to face what is really deep within you...
It may turn out scary... but there are surprises as well.
Argh... I just wish that whatever that comes to my mind can be typed out just as they cross my mind.... so that I can capture everything...
But I guess I'll just stop here and continue another time....
Less than 2hr sleep a day is really taking a effect in me....
Think. Reflect.Labels: Reflections
s e n s e d @ 3:12 PM
