Saturday, December 30, 2006
Being thought of...
Back from What's Next? Survive.
Shall update in the next entry.
Feeling super tired...
But unlike any other camps...
I didn't fall onto my bed immediately after bathing when I got home.
Washed lots of stuffs instead and stayed up till about 12 before I finally turn in.
To think of it, I can't even remember much of what I did then.
But the purpose of this post is to note this very significant thing down... that I clearly remembered doing.
I received 2 christmas cards out of the 3 I get in total this year.
It is relatively very few... but I'm still very touched especially receiving from a friend who has never sent me any cards in the past.
On top of that... there is a card from a very special friend in England.
A friend started out as pen pal... never met.
Never seen how each other look like.
But without fail, he sends me a card and a present for Christmas each year though we have stopped writting to each other as he is busy with work now.
It is impossible for me to get him anything in return as he keeps moving, and he never writes his return address afraid that I get him anything as he always say that I should only do that when I start working.
I felt stupid feeling so lonely and down on Christmas day... because I realized that someone out there is actually thinking of me.. and I am thankful for that.
I might not be an important person to him, but it is heartwarming to be treated like that.
I warms your heart to know that you are being thought of just when you felt like you're the only person in the world.Labels: Feelings
s e n s e d @ 10:20 PM
Monday, December 25, 2006
Christmas Day
Spent my Christmas Day the way I didn't wish to.
But it's better than staying at home, I suppose. That way, I would have felt worse.
But 'thanks' to my aunt, came home and told me we were leaving soon, at around 11am when I just woke up due to staying up late.
Rushed out.
As usual, she kept grumbling that we were running late, her plans were ruined.
She must always go according to her plans and the problem is, she never inform others of her plan, timing especially. She then blames others. Haiz.
Anyway, rushed to Park Mall. Parked the car there.
Take a train down to City Hall and sped through City Link.
Singapore Garden Festival.
Worth a visit.
Lovely exhibits... especially the flowers.
If only I have the entire day to take pictures of the flowers and exhibits. Took them in a rush. They didn't turn out well... :(
Seen some really special ones.. there was one that look like crab claws forming a circle around a ball.
I really like the exhibition.
Heliconia Crab Claw
Some weird looking plant
Beautiful Red Roses!
Glad that I didn't miss it just because I didn't want to spend Christmas with my aunt and uncle.
(Above are just some pictures... shall upload the rest another time.)
Sped through City Link once again, back to Dobby Ghaut to The Cathay.
We were in luck to catch the 3.05 The Curse of the Golden Flower, which was about half and hour away when we were purchasing the tickets. Last 6 seats avaliable.
Took the second row from the front. No choice.
Tragic Story.
Beautiful settings.
But the costumes weren't very appropriate.
Dinner at Cartel.
Decided to treat since I've not treated them to anything after getting my pay cheques.
Spent $34.30 for 3 of us. Not too bad.
Wanted to get the hand messager at Action City.
But sold out.
Just too bad for me.
Packed my bag for camp immediately when I reached home.
The torch made me make so many trip up and down. Rahh...
Will be off to What's Next? Survive! OB camp tomorrow.
Till friday, I don't know what time...
Actually I don't feel like going... but that feeling had faded.
Looking forward to the fun I'll be getting.
Pray hard for me that the weather will be kind to us!
Feeling so awake now... used to staying up to the wee hours.
But I better force myself to bed soon... need to get up early.
Anyway, hope you all have fun in the remaining holidays!
Labels: Christmas Day, Flower
s e n s e d @ 11:30 PM
Thoughts for Christmas
I just remembered that I was thinking that if I have a job, part time or full time...
I'll offer to work on Christmas Eve or even on Christmas Day.
Anyway, Merry Christmas everyone.
Hope your Christmas is a Merry one...
s e n s e d @ 12:14 AM
Sunday, December 24, 2006
I hope that these horrible feelings go away soon.
Why am I feeling so rotten in a festive season?
Rahh~
Tears are welling...
Somebody please give me a hard slap to get me out of this torture.Labels: Feelings
s e n s e d @ 11:52 PM
Christmas Eve Shopping
Somehow this seem to be quite a melancholic Christmas Eve.
Somewhere deep within, I have this sour feeling.
To put it simply, I think it's loneliness that I feel.
Went to Vivo City to look at shoes, at a particular brand not commonly found.
Off my aunt and I went, without knowing the shop name either.
Found out that the shop name is in:famous, and the brand of the shoe is Replay.
Nice designs they've got.
Like a white pair, it's kids' shoes, I can wear the smaller size one, but not very comfortable. The larger one is too big for me. Too bad. No high cut, white shoes for me.
Bought the other pair that we all (The Click) saw the last time we went there.
It's unique, so hope I won't regret getting it. Cause others don't really catch my eyes...
Anyway I've grown to like it...
Shopped around in Giant. Bought some things... Found the place pretty quiet.
But the crowd was streaming in as we were making our way to Orchard.
Went to Wisma Food Republic for snacks.
Back to Orchard Popular.
The human traffic towards the mrt station from Wisma was heavy.
Due to the rain, everyone wants to move in the shelter. If only they didn't block the underpass...
Orchard Popular is a dissappointment. Have decided not to go back there for future stocking up any more. All because of Harris'.
Back home... dinner.. tv from 6 plus till almost 11pm. Oh wells. Nothing to do also... so it's TV.
Should have gone for a movie tonight instead of last night... but oh wells...
Night in the Museum is pretty entertaining.
I wonder what sort of programme I will have tomorrow. Nobody to go out with. Probably I should just stay home and watch TV. Have a quiet and solo Christmas Day. Maybe that isn't a very bad idea after all. Need to take time to pack for camp as well. Suddenly I don't feel like going for camp.. but no choice. Signed up for it. Maybe it'll give me lots of fun, who knows?
The empty feeling is eating into me...
Making my heart numb all the way to my tongue...
I feel like vomitting.
Labels: Feelings
s e n s e d @ 10:54 PM
Friday, December 22, 2006
You are The Moon
Hope, expectation, Bright promises.
The Moon is a card of magic and mystery - when prominent you know that nothing is as it seems, particularly when it concerns relationships. All logic is thrown out the window.
The Moon is all about visions and illusions, madness, genius and poetry. This is a card that has to do with sleep, and so with both dreams and nightmares. It is a scary card in that it warns that there might be hidden enemies, tricks and falsehoods. But it should also be remembered that this is a card of great creativity, of powerful magic, primal feelings and intuition. You may be going through a time of emotional and mental trial; if you have any past mental problems, you must be vigilant in taking your medication but avoid drugs or alcohol, as abuse of either will cause them irreparable damage. This time however, can also result in great creativity, psychic powers, visions and insight. You can and should trust your intuition.
What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.
Labels: Character, Tarot
s e n s e d @ 12:25 AM
Thursday, December 21, 2006
Splurge
What have I been doing since the day Common Test ended and the holidays had begun?
I've been Splurging.
Friday
Watched movie with The Click and Eyecandy.
How did I manage to watch movie with Eyecandy? Because Eyecandy was in the same cinema right behind us. That means we watched The Holiday together. Hahaha...
Spent quite a lot. Secret Recepie. Casing for my Evirobs. Movie ticket.
Sat - Mon
Spent around RM 300 at Genting.
Bought a t-shirt, a pants, a belt and a shirt for my brother.
Spent money on getting gifts and some accessories.
Shopped the entire shopping area. Walked into almost every single shop.
Finally had a taste of Snooker and Pool!
It's pretty fun. But I don't really like those people who hand around there.
On the way back, I suddenly had this feeling that I want to cut off all communications and ties with the outside world, and be a loner. But I doubt I can do that.
Tues
Slacked at home.
Watched the entire series of Rondo.
I'm so in love with Yutaka Takenouchi. Charming man...
Wed
Finally met up with my mum after so many months... 4 months plus...
Could have met up with my brother, but sadly he didn't have an international passport, can't come out. I miss him so much. Bet he has grown a lot.
Gave mum $50 out of my earnings from the part time jobs I had taken up. Glad that she didn't reject me. Felt bad that I couldn't give her more... and make her spend so much everytime we meet up.
I think she knows that I feel bad for making her spend so much because I rejected her treat to crab. But I said that I didn't have the mood to eat. Haiz.
Thurs
Today... finally the day to get my long awaited camera.
$499 for a 7.1 megapixel Olympus camera and quite a number of free gifts. 2 1GB card, leather casing, mini tripod. Not bad at all.
There goes all my earnings.
Oh wells.. nevermind, I have always wanted a camera anyway.
Bought a Singapore edition of Patrizio Buanne's CD.
Value for money.
Shall go back to Gramophone in future to get CDs. Good rates.
Went to Marina Square to shop for exchange gift.
It's lonely to shop alone.
So I made my way home after getting the things.
BBQ tmr.. looking forward to it...
Hope it'll be fun!
I conclude, I am a person who feels lonely easily.
s e n s e d @ 6:51 PM
Tuesday, December 12, 2006
Heart Seizure
Could Heart Seizure be due to some Microorganisms?
I suppose it is in my case.
The fear... of what could be asked in the paper makes my heart skips beats.
I seem to know nothing at this point of time!
The paper is tomorrow morning.
Blame it on myself... for wasting my entire day away.
Thinking of Physiology...
I wonder how I will ever finish studying.
Argh!!!
Pray that I will live through it...
s e n s e d @ 8:48 PM
Monday, December 11, 2006
Love Hate Relationship
I have a relationship with myself.
It's a Love Hate Relationship.
I Love myself for some ways...
I Hate myself in more ways than I love myself...
I Hate myself for
being a person who wastes so much time even knowing that there is no time to waste
being unable to bring myself to do the critical thing
being regretful after wasting time
being not hard working and many many more...
Heck the Hatred I have towards myself...
Right now I'm too happy to feel that Hatred.
I am happy that Mathematics is over...
I will be more delighted if today was the last paper... but it isn't.
I shall remain happy... no matter how much brain swelling I am going to get by pushing myself undergo an intensive study for the rest of the modules.
I hope I am able to achieve that...
I am Happy that I have a White Lamb accompanying my emotions...
s e n s e d @ 6:46 PM
Friday, December 08, 2006
Red Hat
Red Hat = emotions, feelings, passion
There's no other hat on other than the red hat especially for this entire week.
Right now.. I feel that the weight of it is too much for me to bear with.
It's weighing me down...
The pressure is building up.
Everyone's mugging.
The pathetic thing is, all the mugging done does not bring hope.
Reading and reading... not knowing if I'll ever finish reading.
Once, twice, thrice... nothing seem to get in.
Why? Blame it on those who came up with such complicating and out of the world Taxonomy.
What's worse? There's no sample past exam papers.
How to guage what are the likely things to be tested?
Heck that, since it's told to us that anything could be tested... judging from tutorial questions, it's like we will be questioned on nothing but things that weren't taught but found out on our own from I don't know where.
That means we have to read widely.
Isn't it kinda early to tell us about a week before the paper. How helpful.
Pardon my sarcasm.
I'm feeling terrible right now.
With the fact that I can never finish Microbiology, a large pile of Physiology facts for me to digest and bearing in mind that I have s***wed up my IPC practical, and all the more I should know my facts and concepts very well to get better results in the test.
Knowing how some other classes were given special treatment for their practical test... I'm terribly sore about it. It's just very unfair. Don't tell me nothing is fair in the world.
I just feel like crying my heart out now...
Don't tell me why I should be so stressed up over the 20% Common Test marks.
They are still marks and we should still strive to get the best... and since it's always said that Common Tests are easier than Final exam. So all the more we should try to get the max, right?
Nothing makes sense...
I'm not making any sense now either.
and hopefully I don't need tears to make things clear to me and I doubt it will since it will blur my vision.
Pray that we get good papers that help us score well...
s e n s e d @ 11:49 PM
Thursday, December 07, 2006
Thanks...
Many thanks to dearest Elga, Si Hua and Yvonne!!
Love you all so much...
Never regretted joining CRCY!!
s e n s e d @ 5:31 PM
Wednesday, December 06, 2006
| You Are 25% Impulsive |
You're a pretty stable and serious person. You don't take things lightly.
This doesn't mean you can't have fun - you just have fun responsibly.
You definitely have a spontaneous side, but you only let loose when it's appropriate. |
s e n s e d @ 3:39 PM
Attitude
It feels good to be home early, especially on a Wednesday!
But I'll miss the exercises... wondering if I should take time off to go jog later.
Felt super frusturated with myself a few days ago...
for falling sick at such critical time...
I'm suppose to be burning mid-night oil studying for common tests...
but now I have to sleep early to let myself get well asap.
Don't know what's wrong with me either.
Not really having cough... but I get occassional coughing fits.
I have no infection of anything not even my most common throat infection, but my temperature soar a little occassionally.
Tell me I'm dying of some weird unknown disease or sickness...
Completed IPC practical test. With the knowledge that 4 marks are sure to be gone.. and I'm sure more will be lost...
Who ask me not to study thoroughly!
Stupid me didn't read instructions as well..
Happily determine which solution I want to put in the burette and which into the pipette.
Fortunately I came to my senses before I start to titrate. Stupidity sure does diffuse...
Calculations... forget it... not much hope for that.
10%. Maybe I should just heck about it... concentrate on doing well for common test and final exam.
Felt so bad to everyone in the same lab, for my coughing fits... Sorry.
Everyone Jia You for the preparations!
Good Luck!!
s e n s e d @ 3:17 PM
Heliconia Crab Claw
Some weird looking plant
Beautiful Red Roses!