Friday, September 14, 2007
Bits and Pieces
Like A.C said,
my worries had been unnecessary.
He had lots of confidence in me...
just like a few of my friends.
It really sets me wondering what is it in me that makes others have confidence in me,
when my conscious mind has none for myself.
He said that it's because I've proved my worth.
How did I do it? When did I do it?
No need for that excuse that I thought up.
Aunt shall be a happy person on Monday when the result slip arrives.
But I really don't know what to do seeing my friends upset.
All I can say is that I'll work hard with them next semester... try my best to help them.
French result isn't that good.
But since the core modules are well done,
it doesn't matter that much...
but should really give it a little more attention for the up-coming level.
Shopping for a guy is not easy.
Especially shopping for a guy I don't know well and the item in mind is a scarf.
Shopped on behalf of my aunt for my cousin, who will be flying off to UK on scholarship.
Smart guy.
I wonder if I had the chance to be like him.
To be sponsored to study overseas, come back and have a job ready for me.
Anyway, it's so hard to find scarf for men!
Hunted high and low...
Fortunately managed to a quite classy looking one at Isetan's Springfield.
Bought a futon at JL.
Haven't tried it yet.
But maybe I'll sleep well from tonight onwards, just like what Feli said.
Feli,
thanks for walking up and down with me...
for helping me to carry the futon too... it's not at all light!
I am not a person who is good at consoling others.
I feel helpless when someone comes crying or tell me of their pain.
The things I said in return were mixed with fear.
Fear that I will hurt them and prick on their wounds.
The thing I do best is to listen.
But why do some people wallow in self pity?
I don't blame them.
It's because it gets so painful and nobody else seem to care,
you'll just end up self pitying.
I tried to help.
You just sink deeper in.
You demand so much that I cannot give.
I couldn't bear to leave you like that when I easily could.
Your wish is simple. But I can't fulfill them. So what do you expect me to do?
I just pray that life will treat you better as the days go by...Labels: Dedications, Reflections
s e n s e d @ 10:14 PM
