Thursday, January 01, 2009
2008-2009
Happy New Year.
Year 2008, at the age of 20.
One of the most happening year of my life.
Spent 4 months in foreign land, with a friend.
Learnt to be independent, to be tolerant towards others, learnt to accept others for who they are.
Ireland days seem like a dream.
Rome days were romantic, too romantic to be true.
London days were quite an eye-opener for infrastructures.
I have forgotten how it feels like to live in a place filled with people with golden hair and coloured eyes.
Days back in S'pore - whirlpool.
Lots of sweetness accompanied with bitterness.
Finally get a taste of how falling in love with someone feels like.
I got the bad end of it though... when most people started off with the sweet end.
Things are good now.
I hope they will remain good or even get better.
I'm trying my best.
But I don't want to be greedy.
Just let things be good.
I'd be more than happy...
I just wish that we'd be happy...
Holding on to the future that we can have together.
So many things happen.
I 'lost' a very good friend to UCLA, but I also found a wonderful friend who has been there all along despite my absence for 4 months.
Dearest Valerie,
as you're not around this year, I've even stopped sending Christmas cards.
I have no one to call to grumble about everything or someone to talk about our good old Secondary school days.
Dearest Felicia,
thanks for always being around... I guess I don't have to say much. You know how important you are to me.
I ended my year 2008 by visiting a patient during the day,
feeling miserable and lonely with tears welling.
Went to Orchard HMV at 10pm to collect Lee Hom's CD.
Had Mac's Chocolate Mc Flurry.
Waited for quite sometime for the bus to get home.
Sat in front of my desktop as 2008 slip past allowing the entry of 2009, talking to Felicia.
Thank you for calling.
It's just a call, but it made me happy.
Eve Tan,
thanks for keeping your promise...
Can't really make any solid resolution for 2009.
Ending my Poly life soon, if everything goes well.
Still at a loss at where to head to after that apart from wanting to get into a Uni.
I just wish things will stay good for us.
That I'll always have my dear friends.
I want to be a happy person...
Have ended the year with too much tears already.
Please make me happy...
2009 won't be as eventful as 2008 I suppose...
I just hope it'll be a safe and relatively happy year for everyone.Labels: Dedications, Reflections
s e n s e d @ 12:17 AM
Saturday, November 29, 2008
Felicia
Dearest Felicia,
Thank you for your company today.
Time seem to pass by in a less torturing manner.
It was fun shopping!
Hope you had fun.
Despite the heavy bag. =p
Wee~
You're still the best!
Jia you k...
Need my company must always let me know.Labels: Dedications
s e n s e d @ 10:29 PM
Thursday, October 09, 2008
Thanks for the memories...
Can't say that I didn't expect it.
I saw it coming one way or the other.
If only you didn't take things one step further.
Guess it would have been easier for you and for me.
I'm sorry if I was the one causing you all the pain.
I know the answer now.
My presence doesn't make you any happier.
At least you are not torn now.
I shouldn't have responded.
Shouldn't have.
Thanks for all the company you have given.
The smiles you brought onto my face.
Just as I was thinking this morning that your sugar coated words will one day cause me hell.
It came soon enough.
Never mind.
They were sweet there and then.
Hopefully we will still share laughters.
Can't lose you as a friend.Labels: Dedications
s e n s e d @ 11:25 PM
Saturday, September 13, 2008
from my dear girl
Valerie Zhang wrote at 12:48am
hey dear, thanks for talking to me ok! you must jiayou in school! must must! you are going to start school in a years time too! which is very fast! i will be back next yr to witness you going to school ok! (: (:
and i would like to say, thanks very very much for being my friend all these years. i really treasure the friendship we had all this while. thanks alot alot for being with me all this while, always being there listening to my rubbish nonsense.
and i must really thank god for putting you in my life, i really need you! (: takecare ok! I WILL BE BACK IN GOOD TIME. hopefully you can still recognise me! if you cant, i hope it will be because i am a few sizes smaller, not a because i'm a huge human. hahhaa.
i will miss you, actually i miss you already that my heart hurts so :( goodness!
see you tmr (: sleep well dear! loves loads!Labels: Dedications
s e n s e d @ 5:53 PM
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
It's the company that matter...
Hougang Mall has never been more fun to walk around than today.
Cute toy shop, which has lots of amusing things.
Eg, the Growing Pets, which Feli's mum was once crazy over.
But I really think they get kind of ugly as they 'grow up'.
SaSa.
We were looking at these 2 particular nail colours, when an aunty decided to join us.
We did try them out... in discrete.
We moved on, and she continued her hunt.
Man, the way she hunt.
Sounded as if she was doing some serious cooking on the wok.
ZHA ZHa Zha...~
After we have made our purchases, that aunty was still searching.
As we were near the extrance/exit, she asked the sales lady if she could try them out because the colours will turn out differently from the way they look.
She had more than 6 bottles held in her hand....
'Cannot try, try already everyone will want to try and no one will want to buy', was the reply she had.
She looked at me, when dear Felicia hurried her way out of the shop by another way.
Classic.
Sorry, but Aunty, you're not a very wise shopper at your age...
Had a good laugh over this...
Popular fair at the atrium
Looking at this Hello Kitty notebook which has page indicator.
The wordings written on it was not very impressive, in other words, not very good english.
'C**** english' was what Feli said.
Why '* English? and not T***** english?'
But we came across this page which as a word that both of us don't know...
'Chim' was what I said.
She made fun of me.. saying I'm being mean to critise.
Who started it first, my dear girl?
But there was a good phrase on it:
No one can call back yesterday, yesterday will not be called back again.
Laughed really hard there cause she actually said:
cannot call yesterday, yesterday cannot be called when I asked her to help me remember.
Eating cold Otah on benches
'Otah drop on my bag, Wei San how, tomorrow my bag smell like Otah, I carry otah smell everywhere with me.'
Which was quite true... we kept smelling otah even when we were sniffing at perfumes...
~*~*~
Feli,
Thanks for the company today.
Thanks for waiting for me to finish up before heading out with me.
Thanks for all the smiles you brought onto my face.
You just don't know what plans I had if you were not going to keep me company.
I actually intend to go somewhere alone.
Sounds like a loser?
No choice.
Anyway, having a friend like you will never make me a loser!
Love lots~Labels: Dedications, Shopping
s e n s e d @ 11:38 PM
Friday, November 23, 2007
温暖牌
还没确定前，我想让您知道。
不想让您觉得你不曾有我这个孩子。
因为那是您亲口说过的： 我有两个孩子，却好像没有一样。
到了那边不要常常想我，电话费很贵。
SMS就好。
难道，您认为在这时，此时此刻，我不想念您吗？
发简讯的次数不多，打电话给您的次数是少得可怜。
可是那并不代表您已被遗忘。
您没有依依不舍。
反正您重来未曾过。
是不要让我难过，还是我们早已疏远，很远很远。。。
我嫉妒，我对您生活的了解不胜过在您周遭的人。
我感动，当您说您要织一条温暖牌围巾给我。。。
我想，我们拥有一个很不寻常的母女关系。
Fetal Education
What my mother was doing when she was pregnant with my brother and I.
Mine:
Eat
Sleep
Watch tv
Knitting
My brother's:
More brain usage activities. eg gambling
The turn out:
I asked to go school at the age of 2.
My brother refused to go to school.
My mum questioned how funny we both turn out to be.
Though it's a day spent watching you work,
spending a couple of hours travelling just to have a meal with you,
talk to you for less than 50 sentences,
it's all worth the while.
Because that's how much I miss you.
A stipid fool-Labels: Dedications, Reflections
s e n s e d @ 12:21 AM
Friday, September 14, 2007
Bits and Pieces
Like A.C said,
my worries had been unnecessary.
He had lots of confidence in me...
just like a few of my friends.
It really sets me wondering what is it in me that makes others have confidence in me,
when my conscious mind has none for myself.
He said that it's because I've proved my worth.
How did I do it? When did I do it?
No need for that excuse that I thought up.
Aunt shall be a happy person on Monday when the result slip arrives.
But I really don't know what to do seeing my friends upset.
All I can say is that I'll work hard with them next semester... try my best to help them.
French result isn't that good.
But since the core modules are well done,
it doesn't matter that much...
but should really give it a little more attention for the up-coming level.
Shopping for a guy is not easy.
Especially shopping for a guy I don't know well and the item in mind is a scarf.
Shopped on behalf of my aunt for my cousin, who will be flying off to UK on scholarship.
Smart guy.
I wonder if I had the chance to be like him.
To be sponsored to study overseas, come back and have a job ready for me.
Anyway, it's so hard to find scarf for men!
Hunted high and low...
Fortunately managed to a quite classy looking one at Isetan's Springfield.
Bought a futon at JL.
Haven't tried it yet.
But maybe I'll sleep well from tonight onwards, just like what Feli said.
Feli,
thanks for walking up and down with me...
for helping me to carry the futon too... it's not at all light!
I am not a person who is good at consoling others.
I feel helpless when someone comes crying or tell me of their pain.
The things I said in return were mixed with fear.
Fear that I will hurt them and prick on their wounds.
The thing I do best is to listen.
But why do some people wallow in self pity?
I don't blame them.
It's because it gets so painful and nobody else seem to care,
you'll just end up self pitying.
I tried to help.
You just sink deeper in.
You demand so much that I cannot give.
I couldn't bear to leave you like that when I easily could.
Your wish is simple. But I can't fulfill them. So what do you expect me to do?
I just pray that life will treat you better as the days go by...Labels: Dedications, Reflections
s e n s e d @ 10:14 PM
Monday, September 03, 2007
P&C
Job hunt had never been this successful...
Got ourselves a job early in the morning.
Got another right after attending the next interview.
Isn't that good?
Oh ya... to think of it... I should also give Shine an email, shouldn't I?
But I am afraid that I cannot meet the mark...
Let's just see how first..
Ended up at Central...
Hunted high and low for a cake shop...
Found a shop selling only Tweety bird apparels.
You cannot imagine how thrilled I was.
Best of all... sale is going on.
How I felt like buying almost every design...
But there's always self control to be exercised.
Feli,
hope you enjoyed that $5 muffin...
felt like I forced you into it... hope there's no regrets...
at least we get to enter such a classy place, isn't it?
get a feel of how high class high tea is like.. hahaha
thanks for walking around with me!
We sure did walk quite a lot!
Thanks! Really!Labels: Dedications, Outing
s e n s e d @ 9:44 PM
Sunday, September 02, 2007
Patience
Thanks to Christle and Feli for coming...
Hope you both enjoyed yourselves.
Hope mom will like the present I prepared for her.
Felt really over the moon when I received Mr. P's reply.
He is one teacher who had made a great impact in my life.
Got myself a green shirt from P&B.
My first green shirt.
Like Christle said: Taking the first step.
Spent lots of time on travelling today.
From home to Tampines,
From Tampines to Harbour Front via Kovan.
And I think I must say that I have quite a large amount of patience.
I am bothered to travel by buses,
no matter how long I have to wait for the bus to come and how long the travelling journey will be.
It's a total different case for my aunt.
Went to the IT Comex fair with her on Fri,
decided to take the Suntec shuttle service to City Hall and change to the Central shuttle to pursue pretty lovely cakes.
Waited for quite a while for the Suntec shuttle,
But she got fed-up after waiting for about 15min for the Central shuttle service, partly because she was feeling hungry as well.
Off we left, and headed to take a bus home.
Waited for 40 min before the bus turned up, but it didn't allow any passenger to board, because it was packed.
Finally took train home instead.
I don't know why but I felt like laughing when I saw how frustrated my aunt was.
The one who had been out the entire day was me, walked the entire day was me, and suffering from muscle aches.
Seriously I don't see the need to get so worked up.
Felt happy to be back in Cedar,
and one thing that made me really happy was to be spending time with PY again.
I had thought that we had drifted, but really, the bond of friendships is a very special thing.
Had a chance to talk to Miss T too.... oh.. how I really miss her.
School is really different now...
The atmosphere is different.
Thanks Feli,
for accompanying me back in school...
for walking up and down the same route in Bugis from the A'n'BC to BHG, vice versa.
felt quite bad about it...
Patience is a virtue...
Introduction
Eat Crab
Word of Thanks Labels: Dedications, Reflections
s e n s e d @ 12:50 AM
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
Bull's Eye?
I'm longing for the bed...
The pitter-patter is making me sleepy,
The cool breeze is making me soft.
13hr away from Telematch.
My first big scale event... though not done alone.
I'm still kind of nervous at the thought of about 500 participants.
Not here to really talk about Telematch...
Met Darwin last night, cause it's morning now...
Thanks for coming to my place... bearing all the heat etc. I really appreciate it.
Darwin seemed to be more matured.
Maybe cause I didn't meet him the last time round when he came back...
He told me that I was not well-liked back in Sec Sch when he asked about me.
Ha... which prefect will be well-liked, except for some, especially a discipline prefect?
Made me feel a little down over it, though I had no idea which friend of his told him that and despite my time being long over.
Maybe nobody now remembers who Wong Wei San is, what that prefect who always scold them when they ate in the classroom looked like...
I can't remember what we were talking about that led to the conversation on keeping contact.
But I remembered saying: ' It's really hard to keep close contact, all my friends are in the mainstream education and I'm such a great distance away.'
and he said: 'You might be just giving excuses... Maybe you distant yourself.'
He's right, I'm just giving excuses if I were to say that I'm a great distance away from them...
But it's hard.
With that limit of liberity I get...
Sometimes I go all the way out to give everything I can offer or even more,
but what do I get in return?
I know it's not about what you'll get in return, but humans naturally would want care and concern given to them, something to make them know that everything they've done is worthwhile, isn't it?
Yes, you might have gotten the Bull's Eye...
I might not have any true friends after all...
Because sometimes that's how I feel.
It's not about the number of friends, it's the number of years you keep them.
I agree completely,
but it take 2 hands to clap.
One might try very hard, but if the other does not cooperate,
it'll not work!
I don't know what I'm talking about anymore...
In any case, 10 years down the road,
nobody knows what will happen,
whether we'll still be friends,
but I'm glad that we are friends and
were friends if that we ever end up being strangers.Labels: Dedications, Reflections
s e n s e d @ 1:45 AM
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
My babe...
Valerie.
The first girl who called me a Babe.
The girl whom I shared a friendship with that had undergone lots of trials....
I'm really glad we passed those days...
An unexpected call from you tonight made me went to cloud 9 immediately!
We talked like we had been talking to each other everyday....
Argh... Miss you badly dear...
Ok.. I know I sound like I'm a lesbian...
But seriously....
Till date, you've been the only person I have such long conversations with over the phone...
Though tonight's isn't record breaking...
You had given me almost 2 solid hours of updates, listening ear loan and bliss...
Love you lots... (though I have no idea if you'll be reading this or not..)
Turning into a pig with 4 full meals a day on two consecutive days.Labels: Dedications
s e n s e d @ 10:19 PM
Monday, May 14, 2007
What we should do...
It's great to have Feli as a lab partner.
Please don't feel bad that I'm doing more than you.
Sometimes I feel bad that I like never let you do anything.
Same old saying: We should just do what we're best at!
In that way we can benefit each other!
Feeling so tired..
Argh...
Campus run tomorrow!
Lunch being a big light bulb after that...
Down to meet mum..
Wee~ Tomorrow will be a good tuesday!
Do I not look like a BMS student without my specs on?Labels: Dedications, Feelings
s e n s e d @ 9:03 PM
Monday, May 07, 2007
different paths cross in the course of life
some run along, some part.
I'm glad our paths did cross though they have to part.
different environment bring new opportunities and views
some maybe good, some maybe bad.
I hope you'll receive more goodness than anything.
We were never close, but we are Friends.
Dear Friend, Bon Chance*, Bon Voyage.
*Bon Chance means Good Luck in French.Labels: Dedications
s e n s e d @ 8:53 PM
Friday, May 04, 2007
Names
Tan Nian Shun, 陈年顺 this is written specially for you!
My Chinese name is 王慧珊 NOT 王伟山!!!
Please REMEMBER IT WELL!
Or I will KILL YOU!
~*~*~
Oh wells...
I received a new name from Nadjmi.
Stone Mistress.
Which I seriously don't agree...
Because I don't stone.
I was just thinking deeply about what the lecturer was teaching....
Donald did a revision of all the names that I've received so far....
Pang Sei Queen. Which I don't know why...
Log Queen. Due to FOC.
Stone Queen.
He suggest changing to empress instead to have more oriental 'feel'.Labels: Dedications
s e n s e d @ 4:36 PM
Tuesday, February 06, 2007
Dedication
Hey Felicia,
Specially dedicated this song to you.
See, I even bother to use this song as my blog music.
Hope you like it.
To my many dear friends as well...
I'll always be there for you if ever you need me.
I'm just a phone call away.
Please click on the toolbar to play the song.
Tommy Page - A Shoulder to Cry On
Life is full of lots of up and downs,
And the distance feels further when you're headed for the ground,
And there is nothing more painful than to let you're feelings take
you down,
It's so hard to know the way you feel inside,
When there's many thoughts and feelings that you hide,
But you might feel better if you let me walk with you
by your side,
And when you need a shoulder to cry on,
When you need a friend to rely on,
When the whole world is gone,
You won't be alone, cause I'll be there,
I'll be your shoulder to cry on,
I'll be there,
I'll be a friend to rely on,
When the whole world is gone,
you won't be alone, cause I'll be there.
All of the times when everything is wrong
And you're feeling like
There's no use going on
You can't give it up
I hope you work it out and carry on
Side by side,
With you till the end
I'll always be the one to firmly hold your hand
no matter what is said or done
our love will always continue on
Everyone needs a shoulder to cry on
everyone needs a friend to rely on
When the whole world is gone
you won't be alone cause I'll be there
I'll be your shoulder to cry on
I'll be there
I'll be the one you rely on
when the whole world's gone
you won't be alone
cause I'll be there!
And when the whole world is gone
You'll always have my shoulder to cry on....Labels: Dedications
s e n s e d @ 3:36 PM
