Friday, February 22, 2008
Brief and Beautiful
I can't deny that the day didn't start off very well.
Went in for the exam without really finishing my revision.
Regret or not?
Not really... felt that all that I could remember is all that I have at that moment.
Stayed calm.
Can't do?
Bomb it.
Just like what I did for CCTA.
Trust me... just 'wack'
Just pray that I can pass...
and hopefully I'll be able to get an A for all the modules, except a B for BIF will make me very satisfied.
Though I know aiming for such hopes is ridiculous.
Just wish me all the best ok?!
What's brief but beautiful today?
The 1st outing out with 1M05 and 2M04 girls.
Ann, Feli, HQ, Kym, Mel, SJ.
Lunch at Taka's Seoul Garden.
The last visit was during Val's bday a few years back already... Sec 4?
Ate from about 1pm - 4 pm.
Spent quite sometime talking... Mr Bean, Bears, Teletubbies, Happy Tree Friends etc...
Shopping from 4pm - 7pm non-stop.
It was a good time out together.
Should have done this a long time ago...
Now that Year 2 has ended...
Some going to the other stream, others in different class.
Haiz...
Next beautiful moment.
My lovely squadmates...
Even Sing Joo turned up... rare guest..
Dinner at Hereen's NYDC.
They bought me mushroon fury slippers and a small cushion to bring over...
So cute!
Everyone's dressed for work...
Not too formal.. but enough to have office look.
So fast... they're into the working world already...
Best part...
I happen to see the waiter light candles on slices of cake walking towards a nearby table..
which reminded me of the cake we had for Ann in the afternoon.
Conversation carried on...
The next moment.
The cake was placed right in front of me.
2 slices of New York Goldmine, if I didn't remember the name wrongly,
2 large candles.
Haha~
Made to say out 2 wishes... another to remain as a secret.
They wish a Hot Irish for me though... right?
Hahaha~
It was a SUPERB YUMMY cake.
THANKS MY LOVELY LOVELY SQUADMATES.
For the love,
For the well wishes,
For the presents,
For taking time to meet me...
Met Jieming..
arranged to meet again...
for breakfast on sat.
Packed schedule...
but I guess all that matters is taking time to meet up..
It can all be very Brief yet Beautiful....Labels: Reflections, Squadmates
s e n s e d @ 12:50 AM
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
Miserable.
This exam period just s**ks.
Obviously cause my mood was badly disturbed,
by those inconsiderate people living under the same roof as I do.
My heart just aches...
at the thoughts of almost 20 marks lost to a memory work paper.
Oh man... 20 marks.
Why didn't I remember more?
Why why why?!
I'm still harping on a done paper.
When I'm suppose to be studying for the next paper...
in less than 4hr time.
I'm still 14 chapters away from finishing.
That's just reading.
Not a single memory work.
If the paper require me to vomit anything out.
It'll all just be crap.
ARGH!
HATE THIS FEELING.
The last time I woke up in the wee hours to study was in Sec 3/4.
For A math.
Never would I expect myself to do this...
I think my GPA for this sem is going to drop drop drop.
I just feel like dying...
Please make me forget all these torturing memories.Labels: Feelings
s e n s e d @ 5:47 AM
This seems quite true...
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Name: evisan
Date: 2/19/2008
Colorgenics Number: 61743205
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Enough is enough - and you feel that you've had enough for a while. You don't need any more battles. You just would like to be able to shout 'stop' and experience a little peace and calm - even if it be only for a little while. This doesn't mean that you need to cut yourself off from the rest of the world - it just means that you are seeking some respite, some physical or emotional relaxation that could release some of the the tension and possibly reduce the internal conflict.
Your situation is such that at this time it is essential that you resolve your inherent problems immediately. You are not listening nor taking heed from your many friends and advisers, all of which believe it or not, 'wish you well'. Most of your colleagues feel that your attitude is out of context - an attitude of recklessness and desperation. It is imperative that some solution be found, but whatever you do, think before you act.
Nothing seems to be going right for you and you are thwarted every way you turn. You are not at all happy with the situation but it would appear that there is very little that you can do about it at this time. Sit back and let the situation take its course, because at this time you feel that there is nothing you can do to change whatever needs to be changed.
You are frustrated and stressed. You appreciate the finer things in life but at all times you appear to stay aloof, critical of everything and everyone about you. You will not be carried away by your emotions and you refuse to trust anyone or any situation unless genuineness and integrity can be absolutely vouched for. Therefore, you keep a strict and watchful control on your feelings as you must know exactly where you stand at all times. You demand complete sincerity as a protection against your own tendency to be too trusting.
You wish to safeguard yourself against criticism or conflict and to embed yourself in a protected situation. You are a difficult person to relate to and very difficult to please.Labels: Character
s e n s e d @ 5:43 AM
Saturday, February 16, 2008
To be FAR AWAY from YOU
If this is the way you want things to be just a week before I'm leaving for almost 4 months.
So be it.
Who's the petty one?
Me?
When you know that I didn't do it on purpose.
It's my education related matters anyway.
So what it's marked CONFIDENTIAL?
I thought it's for me.
If I knew it was yours, I wouldn't have opened it, feeling puzzled why the school send me 2 of the same letters right?
Are you brainless or what?
You think everyone's such a busybody?
Such a WANT TO KNOW EVERYTHING?
'Unethical'.
You said that it's unethical, of course I know that.
But it's not like you have never never read my personal letters, touched my other personal things?
Ha.
Think about it.
It's my exam period.
Be considerate can?
You TOTALLY SPOIL my study mood.
Such a small matter and you want to make such a big hoo-ha over it.
Being unable to sleep for a night just because of this.
I think you've got a very very small heart.
When I've finally sort of put it aside, you brought it up.
You think everyone's heart is as small as yours?
I pulled a long face today because I was unhappy that you DEMANDED me to help you when I took sometime off to watch a TV programme.
Can't you understand I do need a break?!
It's you who wants to TREAT everyone.
So do it yourself!!
Make others help you unwillingly, and so very sweet of you to make them clear up for you too.
BUG OFF.
****er!
One is a CONTROL FREAK, WHO THINKS SHE'S THE QUEEN.
The other a NAGGY, ECCENTRIC SPY.
I can't wait to get far far away...
and wish that I will never need to stay with you all.Labels: Feelings
s e n s e d @ 3:53 PM
Sunday, February 10, 2008
Sleep-full CNY
It's always sleep-full for almost every single CNY trip home.
This year's especially.
Which I am really glad about.
Too tired from all the tests etc...
Though there's exams to come.
Anyway,
food wise... not as good as last year's.
But it's alright.
As long as they are cooked by my mum.
Had steamed kampong chicken.
Uncle bought an 'old' chicken.
Super tough.
It's like fighting with it when you want to tear it's flesh apart from the bone.
Visit to (another) Uncle's house...
Kids are growing up quickly.
Cousin younger than me dresses more lady like than I do.
Is it really necessary for girls to wear dresses, skirts, frilly tops etc. to be considered feminine?
2 babies.
Really cute ones.
My brother and I looked through our baby photos.
Too bad.
I didn't have a scanner or a proper camera to take pictures of them.
Maybe next year.
Saw mum in her younger days.
In skirts and shorts.
She does have her charms. ^-*
Back in S'pore,
mum and I saw a few girls in skirts, that's not too short, with leggings.
I mention that it looks like aerobics outfit.
She agreed, and said that it was once fashionable in the past.
Hahaha.. retro.
I asked if she think it's nice.
Know what she told me?
Not to dress up in that manner as Simplicity is Beauty.
She likes me the way I am.
Jeans and Tee.
For once...
someone who thinks my dress sense is beautiful.
Haha...
Without fail,
I'll be asked about my studies.
Quick calculations tells that somehow I will still have at least another 8 years to go, if I can get to the top.
That's the number I told anyone who asked.
My youngest aunt in Penang said: by then she'll be an old maid already.
Haha... seriously, does it really matter?
What really matters in the course of our lifetime?
I wonder...Labels: Reflections
s e n s e d @ 1:46 AM
Monday, February 04, 2008
Slog
I can't believe that I have to slog so hard before CNY.
What more?
During CNY.
Argh!!!!!!!!!!!
That few centimeters thick lecture notes of each module seriously makes me feel like there is really no time for anything else if I want good grades.
*each sheet of paper on the average holds 4 slides on each page*
I'm having the worst sem of my years in poly so far...
On top of all the preparations to be done for OIAP.
Haiz.
I need to breathe!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Labels: Feelings
s e n s e d @ 12:26 AM
