Wednesday, October 31, 2007
Wrecker
Feeling a little regretful for today's decision.
Maybe I shouldn't have been there.
I feel that I am incompetent.
I didn't make things right.
Maybe it's time to take a break.
Stop going for some time.
Wanted to have some exercises today.
Ended up having lots of it.
All thanks to my own bad habit.
After scanning things, just leave them there.
Happily went to school without a complete application form.
Deadline was today.
Spent 2 hr break making a trip home.
Walked 6 bus stops.
Buses just like to play tricks on me. Argh.
It's over anyway.
Somehow exercise helps make a person feel better.
Not just happier.
Lots of disappointments today.
But let's not talk about it anymore.
I just wish to forget about it.
When rapport fades,
it's hard to build again.Labels: Feelings
s e n s e d @ 11:27 PM
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
Imagine...
This post is going to mention things that will cause some discomfort.
So be warned. It is rated M18.
Don't come asking what is wrong with me.
I'm no saint after all.
I do allow my thoughts to roam at times...
Thanks to inspirations from Feli.
Credits to you for this entry.
Have you ever imagined...
Doing 'it'.
On the beach,
won't the fine sand get into 'places' you least wanted?
In the jungle,
won't there be lots of crawlies, crawling all over?
By the pond,
won't the ground be muddy, and you ended up having a mud bath instead?
There's so many unusual places...
that somehow don't seem to be the best place for such an activity...
but is that the reason why all the more people want to give it a try?
Because it will be even more exciting...
s e n s e d @ 12:10 AM
Sunday, October 28, 2007
Funny feelings.
Week 2 of school just went past like that.
Just as I was back in the school library with Feli today,
I can't even recall all that I ate for lunch on the past weekdays.
Wonder how I really went through the entire week...
Maybe the days just went past without me remembering much of what really happened.
Suppose there's just too many things...
So many heavy modules, long practicals,
Rushing from venues to venues.
What I remember most clearly was the DBG lab.
Drawing of various Drosophila Melanogaster, aka fruit fly; banana fly.
I got really frustrated that I wanted to give up after drawing 4 out of 12.
But one thing that I was really glad to discover is that I can draw pretty well after all!
People can really exceed their limits when circumstances call for it.
Apart from that, Thursday was one of the more eventful day.
ICA in the morning,
study session with PF in school in the afternoon while waiting for NS.
Dinner at market, luck game at Beauty World, viewing of the GL's band.
Passed by this very old style bakery.
One of these days I'm going back there to try their cake.
Really nice shop.. rare sight.
Friday's Immunology lab of looking at own blood sample was fun too.
I was a little worried actually.
Wasn't feeling well... and lately I just have this thoughts that I am likely to have cancer.
Because there were cases of cancer in my family.
But I'm not afraid of dying... it's more of not achieveing my goals before I die.
Supernatural Season 2 has come to an end...
Can't wait for Season 3.
Felt really sad seeing Dean Winchester shed tears...
Don't know why my heart feels so hollow..
and there's waves of slight wrench.
The feeling is uncomfortable.
I feel like taking it out.
To examine it... or whatever.
The feeling of the heart sinking is miserable.Labels: Feelings
s e n s e d @ 1:05 AM
Monday, October 22, 2007
Bug OFF!
'You all don't understand.'
'It's different for an office.'
'Ya, she's good at computer but very impatient.'
It's an early day off for me today.
Was already half way home by 3.45pm.
Missed the stupid bus when I was waiting to cross the traffic.
A call from a person I dreaded most.
If only I was still in class.
Or in school.
But because I was already on my way home.
There was no reason for me to turn down her request.
To make a trip to her office.
What she needed is for me to set up an account in her computer for mails.
It's something that can be done easily.
I don't understand why she can't do it.
So you see,
when people claim that they are smart,
often then not it's somehow quite the opposite.
Set up Windows Mail for her,
since there's no more Outlook Express in Vista,
and I think it should be better than Ms Outlook.
Yes, I really don't understand.
You never told me you already had the contacts created in Ms Outlooks,
all that you said was: I prefer the other.
They are different things.
I did it out of kindness knowing that you're used to Outlook Express,
Windows Mail might be better for you.
Now you turn around and say I am impatient.
Yes, indeed, I am impatient.
If I am, I wouldn't have took time again and again to help you.
Every time I take time and efforts to help you,
was it being appreciated?
Though you said thanks, I wonder if you meant them.
Remember the Microsoft Office incident?
After all the trouble I had to go through in order to have it installed.
You turned around and complained that it's too complicated and had it uninstalled.
I know.
If my classes are in the afternoon tomorrow,
you would have me go down and have it 'fixed' for you.
'Never mind,
I'll call the internet people,
they will guide me through step by step.'
Then why didn't you do that today?
But had me to go down?
I thought you always wanted me to spend all my time on studies?
One good consolation,
I 'shot' her before I left.
She deserves it.
Just when I was about to leave
She: 'Going home already?'
Me: 'Then?'
Asking the obvious.
Told her I was already on the way home
when she called me to go down to her office.
Whatever.
I know I sound like an ingrate.
Say whatever you want of me.
I wouldn't mind if you want to kill me as well.
What's there in life anyway?
Nothing much.
I sound like I'm AT RISK eh?Labels: Feelings, Reflections
s e n s e d @ 10:16 PM
Friday, October 19, 2007
Shopping
Shopping will only give maximum enjoyment and fulfillment
if you have all the money you need to get whatever you like
and not have to regret later.
There's so many things to buy.
But there's lots of limit to the way money should be spent.
Got approached by 3 guys promoting some saving plans.
Feli thinks that it's lucky....
She said it shows that we're pretty. Haha.
The funny thing is they never guessed that we are from NP.
And one of them thought we are in Nursing course.
Gosh... I don't think I look like a nurse-to-be!
I can tell that the last guy doesn't really enjoy his job.
Cause he seemed to be mocking at it to us.
Guess it's not easy to promote.
Long day of shopping.
1pm + till 6pm+
We sure can shop...
But I guess if we are that sort of girls who go for skirts, dresses and make-up,
such a duration will not be sufficient.Labels: Shopping
s e n s e d @ 9:42 PM
Thursday, October 18, 2007
Back to school...
I love being back in school.
The familiar faces...
The laughters among us...
The usual hangouts between break...
The bookshop aunty's temperamental looks.
First day of school was just 3 hours of lectures...
But Feli and I decided to go early.
Just to queue up to purchase notes.
Yeah... it's the kiasu mentality.
But why not? Since lecture only starts at 11am.
Give ourselves sometime to take in the back to school atmosphere!
I don't know why,
but I was quite delighted to see Nadjmi.
Probably, cause didn't get to see him throughout the entire holidays.
I miss his chain of actions to express how cold or lame the jokes sounded to him.
Happy dinner with Feli.
It's funny.
We see each other almost everyday during the holidays...
Yet we longed to go out together.
Felt so super tired just after the first day...
It must be the long queues...
I realized that I have some really interesting lecturers this semester.
They are animated.
Easily amused over small things.
Good jokes as well.
It's a good thing, since most of the modules are super dry.
Wednesdays will be the worst days of the week.
Multiple lectures and long hours of practicals.
Then the rush to training!
I wonder how am I going to go through...
I was trying so hard to stay awake during my Immunology lecture.
Not that it was boring...
It's just that there was too much informations.
It's not going to be easy...
Since it's so difficult to stay attentive.
Have to do daily revision already...
Feeling pretty good to have no classes on Thursdays.
Can use the time to catch up on work.
That is if I were to be disciplined.
But I always waste so much unnecessary time on I don't know what.
School library is stupid.
Early afternoon, the speaker blasted with instrumental music.
And I really mean Blasted.
Those music are meant to be played in low volumes in order to give a soothing and mind stimulating effects.
Just imagine a piece playing with quick piano keys... your heart just tend to race with it!
It makes you nervous.
It might even cause a person to have a heart attack I suppose.
Looking forward to tomorrow!
Retreat for the staffs.
Happy day for the students!
But poor BLT students... jia you!
It's yet another day out with Feli!Labels: Reflections
s e n s e d @ 9:16 PM
Sunday, October 14, 2007
Umbrella
My eldest aunt came.
Went to the market to get some prayer things.
The sky was dark.
Looked like it will rain anytime.
She grabbed an umbrella from the corner of the room where we keep them.
She left it open to dry in the hall as we always did.
Younger uncle as usual.
Went to take a look.
'Why is there a Singapore Casket umbrella?'
A series of frenzies followed.
The umbrella was dumped immediately.
The 'investigation' begun.
Aunt insisted on finding out how such an umbrella landed in the house.
The 'game' of Finger pointings started.
Eldest Aunt was the most sensible.
'Now that the umbrella has been thrown away, just forget it.'
Totally agree with her!
Why harp on it? So what if you have found out who brought it home?
Blaming it for not striking 4D, not winning in mah jiong.
Why be so superstitious?
Why go through all that?
It's just an umbrella.
If you're superstitious, just throw it away and end it there.
Sprinkle whatever flower water, rinse the other umbrellas.
Leave my bears alone.
They don't need water to be sprinkled on them.
And as usual, you always want to have the last say.
The finger is never pointed at yourself.
But remember, the other 3 are towards yourself.Labels: Jokes, Reflections
s e n s e d @ 2:19 AM
Friday, October 12, 2007
Long Entry
Never been back in Malaysia for such a long period.
3D2N camp.
4D3N home.
~*~*~
Camp
No feeling as the day to embark for the camp drew nearer.
Probably because I'm no longer going there for the first time and am no longer the participant.
But I got really frustrated on Thurs, just the day before the camp.
All thanks to Her. Messed up my schedule.
But it's ok. Now that it's over. Turned out alright anyway.
Day 1 was fun.
Jetty jump. I like the one I did at OBS better. Higher jetty.
River cascade. Didn't get to do the actual thing. How nice if we did.
IJ. No longer had the same feel when I was the camper.
Day 2 was The Day of this camp.
Panti hike. It seemed much more relaxing. Not that the first aid kit was super light.
It was a different kind of burden.
The excitement was no longer there...
Camp fire. The only time I got really really high!! But it was a great campfire night.
Got really touched when my group's GLs told us that they love us. Because I personally felt that we didn't have much impact on them and didn't really help them much.
Day 3 was the wrap up.
Clean up. Alright.
Photo session was crazy.
Never remembered us taking so many photos when we were GLs.
Probably because this time round there were more cameras.
Sometimes it's really good to thrash things out. But during the appropriate occasion.
Dinner.
Gave half my bowl of Laksa to KH, the hungry boy.
The CBE guys are really fun.
Pool session was the most entertaining and the 'event' which I enjoyed most during those 3 days.
With the crazy Diva, PF around, her sought after JH... manx... food was quickly digested.
~*~*~
Monday.
Finally bought that pair of Nike shoes that really caught my eyes.
There goes my 3 week's pay.
PF and I ate lots... Wanton Mee... Chee Cheong Fun... Mac's after that.
Too tired to shop.
Went home got my bag packed... could have leave much later.
But I just hate to stay home see her face before I leave.
Lust.Caution.
Nice movie. Don't mind watching it again.
Thanks XX,Serene and SH for accompanying me!
First time I needed the bus driver to wake me up when the bus reached Tampines interchange.
Fortunately my destination is the interchange.
Imagine if I had missed my stop...
I can't.
Sat and waited... for mum to knock off.
Those guys working at her work place are so young. Less than 24.
Supper at 1am plus.
Throughout the days.
Apart from going to the immigration to get a new passport, visiting my aunt and her new born and my brother.
Stayed at home all the time, watching videos and sleeping. Eating as well.
There is no reason that I have not grown fatter.
But I really love being HOME.
It is simply lazing around.
But I get to eat food cooked by my mum.
Hold her hands.
Sometimes I feel like I simply can't grow up.
Told my mum that I can't wait to go on oversea attachment.
To be away.
I admitted to her that I am naughty.
I grab every single opportunity to be out.
She understood.
She understood that I was trying to escape.
To escape from my aunt's control.
Mum asked if I have suitors.
She was happy that I have none.
Haha... some kind of mother huh?
But I understand that she knows I want to pursue my studies... and she's only motivating me.
~*~*~
Back yesterday.
First thing I did was to go out.
Just want to make full use of the last few days...
Shopped for 2hr alone at Daiso and PageOne.
I Love those books at Page One.
They sell such a large variety.
I'm going back there to explore one of these days.
Still hesitating if I should get that set of Chinese books that's on sales...
Next month it shall be.
Shopping with PF is fun...
apart from the fact that she'll put the dresses on me. =P
Yes yes.. Miss Diva. MORE shopping together!
I love that bag too... but really no point.
Thanks argh. Really.
No matter how tired you are.. you always accompany me.
Right now.. I'm stuck at home..
Hesitating if I should go out alone first not. Haiz.Labels: Feelings, GL, Reflections
s e n s e d @ 12:07 PM
Thursday, October 04, 2007
Spoiler
If you ever need to have your day ruined right from the start.
You can have my *ahem*
Super irritating person.
Who goes on nagging early in the the morning.
Says one thing and does another.
Thinks that she's the All-Mighty and Knows-it-all.
She was the one who asked me to go back in the first place.
When we could have gotten all the immigration things done here.
For what reasons, I have no idea.
What the he**!
Now, she's nagging for my mum to check everything out.
So that I won't get stuck back there.
Hello.
I thought you're very clever, for that's what you claim to be.
You can easily find out right????!!!!!
After all the hoo-haa,
You're telling me to do everything here!!!!!!!!!!!!
We could have just make that arrangement right from the beginning!
You're only saying this after you created so much inconvenience.
You're always like that.
Everything has to be done your way.
Just cause you think you're the Queen.
I'm already busy preparing for camp.
Just cause I have to do all these s**t for you before I leave.
My schedules, my plans get disrupted.
And you think by paying me is the best compensation.
I would rather you not pay me a single cent, let me do it when I really can.
Or you can easily find somebody outside to do it for you.
You're paying anyway!!!!!
CONTROL FREAK!
Feeling so super irritated now.
Everything is so messy.
I can't even have a proper rest!
Argh!
I just feel like slamming something right in front of her face!
s e n s e d @ 8:44 AM
Monday, October 01, 2007
Grow Up
What is growing really all about?
Not doing things that you used to do anymore?
Losing the enthusiasms for certain things that seemed so important in the past?
But I can say for sure there's a part of me that has grown up.
Could have easily spent another $20 to buy another version of a CD that I already owned to obtain a ticket to an autograph session.
But I didn't do that.
Point 1: That's not the way to spend money.
Point 2: It doesn't seem that important to have an autographed CD.
Point 3: Supporting an artist does not necessary have to be in that earnest way.
As I stayed at home listening to the live telecast.
I no longer feel the cringe of not turning up, as I did in the past.
Funny.
But I'm still a kid.
You will know that when you see how obsessed I get when I see Tweety.
Bought another 2 Tweety shirts! Wee~
~*~*~
She said this: She's so big already, she knows how to manage herself.
That is said in response to somebody who asked about my schoolwork.
But I seriously doubt that's the way she's thinking.
Happy Children's Day~Labels: Reflections
s e n s e d @ 10:40 AM
